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Apr 2016 princessv

I'm back

Apr 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

I'm back

Candle flicker and flutters
As wax drips down the table
The wax leaving stained scatters
Producing a light that is stable.

Across the page etched new words
In hopes they relieve existing pain
And reach ears that made them heard
And a new beginning is to attain.

I am saying hello to all of you again
As I withdraw on my portrait of goodbyes
To fill ink into my writing pen
And restart our search with new 'Hi's'

I keep having crazy moments in my head....I'll be back so worry not.

[I must thank you Tonya for helping me move on. I am back to writing with your encouragement and your words of wisdom. I thank you]

Mar 2016 princessv

Farewell

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Farewell

People don't understand that being hurt
Is like contorting a wound and rubbing dirt
In place of applying bactine,
It's like fighting a disease without a vaccine,
A world where the average relies on being mean.

People don't understand that being invincible
Doesn't shield you from love the way you had hoped
And standing in the crosshairs of a ******'s scope
We come to realize that Cupid is a deadeye,
He's capable of hitting anyone without try.

Even the strong falls in the face of their emotions
And even an alchemist has no true cure or potion
For this affliction,
Known as love.

I have loved you for half a year
And although that isn't a long while
I have cried a billion tears
And I have loved you with a million hearts.
I write this last poem dedicated to you
To remind you that you are beautiful
And hope that you find the happiness
That you seek for.

Mar 2016 princessv

To you

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

To you

I took a step towards the moon
I promise sweetheart I'll be with you soon
Just need to finish up some business,
I mean what's 30 years anywas right?
I have missed you,
It's been kind of a relief
That you visit me in my dream
Every night.
One day I'll walk to the moon
And never turn back
I promise.
I hope you haven't been feeling lonely
Don't worry, the feeling is mutual
Life on Earths ******* boredom
Since you've left.
Don't worry sweet heart
I'll see you in my dreams
It gives me the chance to tell you
Things I never got the guts to say
Like the way your eyes remind me of cupid
The way you walk reminds me of cupid
Your smile shines even from the moon
And you remind me of cupid
Because I love you.

What is 30 years really?
I'll be with you soon.

Mar 2016 princessv

Choices

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Choices

If my mum has taught me anything
It's that you can't let death
Take the light out of life.
She told me that when father passed
She was waiting for an impossibility
She told me she was waiting for his return
And in her mind she knew for certain.

So she sat in sadness till I reached adulthood
And I spent my childhood
Watching my mum struggle day by day
And I would still enforce our family tradition
That 'I love you's' are shown in silent actions.
The darkness of death
Leaves the light in anyone
Feeling indebted to a soul
That no longer roams the Earth.
I chose to live,
Even in the darkness of the world,
Sitting in the corners of shadows approaching
**I chose to live

Mar 2016 princessv

Last

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Last

Strangled struggled as the light gleaming in her eyes darkened.

She was caught between a tormented soul and one on its way to find peace.

She came to me in my dream and spoke of serenity. In her distorted words she says 'Serenity is found in the sound of your last heartbeat'.

Mar 2016 princessv

Forcing a Smile

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Forcing a Smile

Faint echoes of applause
As the day approaches a close
Darting a death stare to the sound
As the casket gets lowered to the ground.

I was too emotional exhausted to exchange punches
And the memories of our late night 2 a.m lunches
Flooded my crimson teary eyes
As I hid my tears by looking at the skies.

I should have fought for you or at least with you
Way before my days became stained with a permanent blue
And there are no do overs so I can't relive it again
And for you sweetheart I dedicate my tear stained pen.

Next time write me a message and I'll fight for you
I've left a felt-tip pen buried next to you.
You use to make the ***** jokes of the felt and tip
Write a to-do list and I promise, not one item skipped

But I know you, you'll probably write something like
1. Live life
2. Smile
3.Try to eat healthy (that doesn't mean an all fast food diet)
4. Go play basketball
5. Go find love

Mar 2016 princessv

Growing

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Growing

I used to love the sunlight
And the moonlight
Because I saw your face
Reflected from them.
I stood in the shadows now
Dodged the sunlight,
I sat in the corner of my room
Hid from the moonlight
Because they reminded me
Of how you
Broke what wasn't yours
To break.

I watered a garden of sadness
I watered orchards of ache
Because
Flowers only bloom
In the face of people's gloom
Because
Every rose petals
Lives from a pain that settles
Inside all of us.

Grandparents told me when they are sad they plant seeds because even though they were internally or emotionally dying at least something else is living or growing.
They told me there's more to flowers rather than just scent and appearance.

Mar 2016 princessv

Fake It Till You Make It

Mar 2016 princessv

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Fake It Till You Make It

I held a smile that stretched cheek to cheek
But inside my room everything is dull and bleak
Outside of my room, I am a vibrant rainbow
But inside my room, I bury a pain no one knows.

I relive the memories of a shattered tie between friends
Because no matter how positive I try to be, things end,
And I keep my head held up high outside my room
While inside I fold my arms and descend into gloom.

I smile for you but I cry for me,
Tissues that wipe away eye seas,
So that inside my room I died
and outside my room, I lied.

Inspired thought poem

Mar 2016 princessv

I blame myself

Mar 2016 princessv

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I blame myself

I sat here blaming everyone else
When I should have been blaming myself.
I should have stood by and helped
I should have faltered myself
Just to help others live on.

I blame myself for my best friend being gone
I blame myself for my father passing away
I blame myself for the world's decay.
I blame myself for my mothers sadness
I blame myself for all the people's madness.

I blame myself for not having been a better person
And I know this for certain,
I blame myself for not being serious enough
I blame myself for not knowing how to love
I blame myself for the hearts shattered
I blame myself for the words scattered
I blame myself for this disgusting piece
I blame myself for the world's decease
And I blame myself for blaming myself.

Mar 2016 princessv

Bye

Mar 2016 princessv

Star Gazer

Bye

I have always tried to write
So that my demons are kept away
Not everyone puts up a fight
And so the demons see light of day.

I write this last piece for the friends
Who have seen me through insanity
For those that believe that 'things end'
And now my words are living in vanity.

Thank you for the multiple experiences
Showing me that life in essence is beauty,
That there lies things beyond appearances,
And now I guess I've served my time, done my duty.

I bid you all a fine farewelll
Praying for all of you
To live life in swell
And escape matrimony with feeling blue.

Thank you all. Most importantly thank you to Ashley, Eriko (you'll make it to be a successful artist. Talent tends to drive success and you are talented. Don't ever stop painting or writing) lucinda, Blaine (you have been one of the toughest people i know and I want you to see that you are an amazing person. Although the skies might fall and the ground might shake, I know at max you'll bend never break. I hope you get through everything just fine and I am glad that as long as you are happy I'll be fine to go on. Keep your head up high, there's beauty everywhere around you but most importantly it's in you) nameless (all the best with your literal shawty if I remember correctly. Keep going bro, you'll find love and live happily one day. Btw you have a talent for writing maybe one day I'll read a published book) , bailey (sorry about that last collab idea- maybe one day in the distant future. We share the same stars but even some stars dim. Thank you for every advice you've given me. Keep on going, especially the spoken word poems,you have a lovely voice .... I meant poetic voice....but you also do have a lovely literal voice) , carol (keep on going carol. You might be the fastest runner or furthest jumper one day. Don't let anyone take that light within your heart away. I know you'll keep fighting. And ps; I 100% support you if you were to call your coach an *******). Thank you to the murderer, princess (I believe in you dear, tough situations don't always last but tough people do and i know you are tough. Promise to do your best to keep fighting and i hope the kindness in your heart doesn't dissipate. If you message me I will reply, I'll be by your side like I promised) julie (your students are lucky to have you, thank you so much for your wisdom and motivation for me to keep going) and most importantly thank you all. Oh right, thank you to the kind, warm and caring soul, thank you Hannah. You all have digged me out of the pit I've fallen in and I can't have anyone to thank except for you.

All the best ♡