She visits in the dark
Sliding between the sheets
Between dreaming and waking
Bringing
Pain and pleasure
Suffering and ecstasy
She comes to me
(or I to her?)
She is starving
(or am I?)
A hunger never to be fulfilled
Never fulfilling
Pleasure and ecstasy
Only for a moment
Pain and suffering
Remain

How I long for your presence, my Beloved
I long to gaze into your eyes
Like the most precious gems
And find the completeness of my soul
I long to feel your hair
Like the smoothest of silk
And feel the warmth of our Love
I long to inhale your scent
Like the finest perfume
And experience the euphoria of our Love
I long to kiss your lips
Like the sweetest of wines
And become intoxicated by you
I long to caress your body
Like the most tender of embraces
And feel the comfort of your presence
How I long for your presence my Beloved

Out of nowhere
She appears
One with the Night
Shadow and Mist
Fire and Blood
Endlessly
She torments me
Three birds missing:
Faith, Hope, and Love
Especially Love
Lost forever in her

God brings friends together
So they may know more of Him
Through you I am able to see Him
And understand Him a little more
God brings friends together
To show more of His Love
Within you I see this
And understand Him a little more

loneliness
dejected from being alone
cast down
dishearten
lost spirit
sadness
gloom
sorrowful
distress of the mind
emptiness of the heart
suffering of the soul
loneliness

Crying in the dark
Cold and hungry
Lonely and scared
Hurt by the past
Fearing the future
Dying in the present
(who cares)

Frozen in time
My past haunts me
I cannot move forward
If I do I may hurt
If I don't I may die
I am lost
Confused
Unsure of how to move
From here to anywhere
I cannot continue
With all this chaos in my soul
I feel nothing
And everything
I am stuck
Frozen in time

Thank You Lord
For Your righteousness
I sing about Your Name
The Lord Most High

I am pregnant with evil
Conceived by trouble
Giving birth to deceit
I have dug a pit
Hollowed it out
I have fallen
Into the hole I dug
My trouble comes back
And my violence falls
On my head

In my failure to repent
God has sharpened His sword
And strung His bow
Made them ready
His deadly weapons have been prepared
His arrows tipped with fire

Let the evil of my wickedness come to its end
Establish my righteousness
He examines my heart and soul
He is a righteous God
My shield is with Him
He saves the purity of my heart
He is a righteous judge
Executing justice daily

In His anger He rises up
Lifting Himself against the fury
Of my soul
Awakening for me
Declaring judgment on me
A mass of people gather around Him
He takes His seat High over it
He judges me
Vindicates me
By my righteousness and integrity
(By my inequity and infidelity)

My God
Because I have done this
There is injustice on my hands
I have done harm
To one at peace with me
I have plundered my adversary
Without cause
My enemies shall pursue me
They shall overtake me
They will trample me
Leaving my honor in the dust

I seek refuge in You
My God
Save me from my pursuers
Rescue me
They tear at me like lions
Ripping me apart
And no one rescues me

She is a *****
She has opened herself
To perversions uncounted
She has become diseased
From her depravity
Filthy
In her corruption
She shall be made clean
By My Love
In My Love
She shall be permitted
To dress in fine linen
Bright and Pure
To the feast of our union

You are a spark of light
In my darkness
You have shown me the way
Back to love
You bring me closer
To where I should be
And away from where I was
Through your love
I am better able to understand His
As I draw closer to you
I draw closer to Him

Your strength frees me
Helping me to move forward
When I cannot rise
Held down
By the weight of the world
Your strength lifts me
When I am drowning
Held under
By the waves of confusion
Your strength pulls me free
When I am trapped
Held back
By my own weakness
Your strength frees me

Sitting in the dark
(And alone)
In the rubble of the church
With broken wings
(And heart)
Stained glass shards
And rotting pews
Surround a lost soul
Searching for peace
In the debris of the past
Looking for answers
In that which did not last
Instead of that which did

I call out in the night
Crying to the heavens
Demons torment my soul
Despair and anguish
They consume my heart
I fight the temptation
To to give in
And end it all
To surrender to the darkness again
At the bottom of the deepest pit
There in my personal hell
I find the Light to escape
And the Way to relief
I find refuge
In nail scarred hands

Visions of your future
And dreams you will follow
Showing you the way
His Hand will ever guide you
Through the paths of this life
Into the next

The pain has returned
Brought on by another
Disappointment and anger
Nothing feels right any longer
The pain consumes again
Unsure of where to go
And how to progress
Afraid of the future
And of repeating the past

Peace flows to you like a river
Glory like a flood
And you pour them on me
Throughout my life
(and before)
Your love was with me
The comfort you have shown me
Is the comfort of God
I rise up and call you blessed
Because I am blessed
By you

Together we walk
Side by side
Through life's valleys
And over its mountains
Our tears are shared
Both in joy
And in pain
Together we walk
You and I
Bound
By the Love of Friendship

The darkness had consumed me
I no longer felt the light
The warmth
Anything
I was broken
I was dead
Then came my angel
Breaking through the darkness
Bringing the light back to me
Life back into me
Once again I felt the light
The warmth
Coming from her love
Our love

A father is a child's first glimpse of God
The beginning of their understanding of Him
A portrait of His strength and shelter
The first example of His authority
And His mercy

The child seeks his face and approval
As they will one day seek God's
They follow in his footsteps
As they will one day follow in God's

You sent me to them
To share Your Message
But they failed to hear
They would not listen
They continued in their sin
Convinced of their own wisdom
They followed their own path
Of self-destruction
Self-consumption and self-interest
Living for the pleasures of now
At the cost of future joys
And future existence
They continue on this path
Into their own damnation

Words cannot express
What you bring to my life
Comfort and joy
Warmth and happiness
Are not enough to express
How you make me feel
Love and friendship
Affection and fellowship
All these and more
Cannot begin to express
What you bring to my life

You pour your love on me
In times of joy
And times of pain
Your love pours
When I  hurt
And when I hurt you
Your love pours
When I am lovable
And when I can't even love myself
Your love pours
Always

I thought I had it all figured out
Then you came along
And changed the rules
My life was in total order
Except for you
You were the gray
In my black and white world
I gave you eight months of my life
You threw them in my face
I gave up everything for you
You never cared
I walked away from everything I believed in
You just mocked me
I tried to be all you wanted
But you always wanted more
I finally left
And made a life again
Now you want back
And I still don't know what to do
When it comes to you

He comes to me in my sleep
Shrouded in darkness
Standing over me
Silent
Always silent
He watches
His face covered
In the shadow of his cloak
Appearing in the mist between
Dream and reality
(and of it)
He is terror
He is terrified

Before me always
Are the sins of my past
Sins against You (only You)
Things evil in Your sight
You are correct when You condemn
Justified when You judge

I have been diseased since birth
Infected since the moment of conception
The cancer of my soul
Growing, consuming, destroying
Threatening to over take all I am

Cleanse me with Your Love
And I shall be clean
Wash me in Your Blood
And I will be whiter than snow
Wash away my impurities
and cleanse me from my sins

Have mercy on me
O GOD
According to Your unfailing Love
According to your limitless Compassion

Create in me a mended heart
Renew in me a strong spirit
Make me a new creature in You
Let me hear joy and gladness

Do not cast me from Your face
Or remove Your Spirit from me
Restore me to Your salvation
Sustain me with a willing spirit

Have mercy on me
O GOD
Save me from the Fires
The Judgment for my deeds

Save me GOD
And I will teach of Your Ways
I shall sing of Your righteousness
Open my lips
And I will declare praises unto You

Thoughts race through my mind
But words will not form
Emotions flow through me
But I know not how I feel
The Emptiness has returned
And has swallowed me again
I live again in darkness
Fighting to see the Light
(And against it)

The dark elf stood alone
As the babe rode off
On the back of the Dragon
The fairies were replaced by demons
(ever present)
And the repentant ghoul wept
His soul shattered for thirty pieces
I remember the wings most
At the end
There were palm trees then
When dreams seemed real
And Love came easy

Searching for reasons
Every time I pray
Looking for answers
Everywhere I stray
Never finding either
And never finding peace

Many years we have traveled
At each other's side
Still bound
(Even more tightly)
Our Love has grown
Beyond friendship
Into something more
As we continue to walk
Side by side
Through life's valleys
And over its mountains
Our Love will grow more still

Because of your friendship
My days are brighter
My nights are calmer
Because of your friendship
My laughter is sweeter
My burdens are lighter
Because of your friendship
Because of you

I am better
For having met you
I am wiser
For having known you
I am richer
For having loved you
I am purer
For having been loved by you
I am better
For having you in my life

Your appearance is matched by no one
You were formed in the rays of light and love
Created by The Hand of the One
Allure and grace flow from you
And you from them
You are beautiful

Your presence is matched by no one
You were formed in the ways of light and love
Carried in The Hand of the One
Faith and hope flow from you
And you from them
You are wonderful

Shattered and broken
The pieces are out of place
There is no order
Just chaos and pain
Confusion and depression
Spiraling downward
Toward an end I cannot see
The Light tries to reach me
But the Darkness pulls me away
Deeper into the abyss
The Hell that is my mind

You bring me closer
To where God wants me
You show me more
Of life than I had seen
You are a window to Heaven
And a glimpse of Paradise
Through your eyes
God seems nearer
Than He ever has

My life is forfeit
Death is required
And blood must be spent
To pay the price
And make atonement
For the existence I have led
Ant the decisions I have made
Hell and damnation await me
But I shall be spared
For blood was shed
But it was not mine
A life was given
So I could live
Eternally

The battle rages on
As demons and angels clash
The blows of lightning and thunder
Hail and wind
The darkness is closing in
As the demons gain ground
The cries of the fallen echo in the shadows
Dead and dying
The end is drawing near
As the demons claim their prize
And triumph over the light
Sin and death
Their victory is short lived
As the demons fall into the fire
The King's people rise again
Saved by His sacrifice
Blood and tears

Things seem so simple
And then I meet someone like you
The ones who make me feel
Your presence and my own
Always challenging my perceptions
Never letting me settle
Allowing me to grow

Thoughts of you
Always in my mind
Things you do or say
You are always there
Always in my mind
Never without you
Always in my mind

She sits in the shadows
Of her room and mind
She examines the white scars of her past
And the more recent streaks of crimson
She feels the steel against her wrist again
And prepares herself to feel again
The smooth slide of the blade
And the short sensation of control
She tells herself this will be the final time
The time she allows all her pain to flow out
A quiet voice whispers to her
"You need not bleed"
She begins to weep
The blade falls from her hand
As she falls to her knees
"For I have already bled for you"

Many lives you passed through
During the journey of your own
Touching each one (loving)
In each one leaving
A little of yourself

I remember her eyes
Lonely and sad
Hidden by her smile
And cigarette haze
The pain within them
A hard life revealed
Tears fill them
When she is alone
Away from the sight of others
(or thinks she is)
He cries too
But she doesn't see Him
(or won't)
So their tears fall

In my darkest hour
You were there
In my brightest moment
You were there
In the storms of life
You were there
In the sunny days
You were there
When I needed a friend
You were there
When I needed to be held
You were there
When I wanted to be alone
You were there
When I needed to be loved
You were there
When I needed a Savior
You were there
On that cross
You were there

What do I do?
I know I Love you
More than anyone
But things changed
In the month you were gone
I don't think I want to be
With you right now
But I am terrified of hurting you
And I'm scared I'll lose you forever
It doesn't feel right anymore
I'm trying to act like nothing happened
Act like you want me to be
But it's just an act
It's not me
I can't tell you who I am
I don't even know anymore
I was hoping
Being with you
Would bring my feelings back
But when I'm with you all I see
Is what could have been
Not what could be