Sunlight, Sunlight, Sunlight
Pierced the tissues of your eyes, still warm and red from the fight.
The creases his body left untouched at his side of the bed.
The scent of your skin still lingers around the room
like the scent of lit candles as if you’re visited by the dead.
Dead, Dead, Dead like the love I can’t feel anymore.
Woke up to the reality that there is no us, well at least not anymore.
that I won’t wake up to the smell of your cooking anymore,
and wipe tears from your face as you tell sad stories anymore
or waking up to the sight of you drooling on my pillow like before,
Anymore, Anymore, there’s no us anymore.
I wish I could’ve told you how much change you’re responsible for
like how much positivity and influence you’ve accounted for
and how much I love and appreciate life now unlike before,
Before, Before, Before
that all went out the window when you decided to walk out the door
no arguments and reasons to be even worth the trouble for
no reason, no explanation just unresolved disintegration
Sunlight, Sunlight, Sunlight
Barefaced mornings staring at the ceiling
looking for anything that makes you capable of feeling of anything
holding tears back that you can’t help but wipe away,
Away, Away, Away,
wondering why do people deserve to feel this way
there are things that even the equilibrium cannot weigh
thinking about everything I could’ve done to make you stay.
Stay, Stay, Stay
what did I do to push you away?
If I pulled my heart out of my chest would you stay?
If I put my mind through hell would you stay?
I gave you every part of me, I have nothing left, Why didn’t you stay?
Stay, Stay, Stay
why did I even let you end things this way
thinking things over a **** and a filled porcelain ashtray
What the **** happened to all the dreams of the future we’re supposed to be living in today?
Today, Today, Today
Remember all my fears and why I don’t believe in yesterday?
I still have a ton of things I never even got to say
Like how you saved my life by simply making my day.
Day, Day I miss you every day
remember the thing I told you about sunsets and how it ended the day?
when my anxiety was causing my mind to wander off astray
I take at least 30 minutes, just to witness the sun set at the roof every day.
Every day. Every day, Every **** day
I would sit on my bed, and play some music just to be sober enough to the world shift into blackness.
how there’s beauty in the last second before the world is consumed by the darkness
and how amazing it would make me feel before I succumb to the numbness.
Numbness, Numbness, Numbness
I can feel myself slowly succumbing to the darkness
feeling nothing but hurt, and emptiness
I’m so tired of feeling this harsh and cold bitterness
Nothing, Nothing, Nothing
that’s all he left me,
that’s all I have and that’s all everything would be.
that’s what you did about everything that mattered to me.
Sunlight, Sunlight, Sunlight
The sun’s rays last illuminate the tears from my eye
you were my sober sunset but the night is nigh
everything’s dark and frightening, I know, shhh that’s okay
The darkness of night only means sunrise is on its way.