My meditation is you ..
This warm feeling which i feel wen u r near me is worship for me .. My peace lies within ur company, this deep silence with smile on our faces wen we r lying on bed together , my happiness is around you .. the way we giggle over everything and nothing ..the way we laugh together for hours & hours non stop for such silly and non funny things  makes me most happy . My childhood lies in you... The way i become child in front of you and we  do most stupid things together and yet find them the most creative things and praise each other ..my innocence lies in you .. The way i get to do such simple things and yet feel so empowered and content ... My pamperness lies in you ..the way i get angry and you come to me plant kisses on my lips , cheeks,forehead cup my cheeks with your two tiny hands i feel the most pampered person on this earth . My anger lies in you ..the way u and i get angry from each other and without any ego we both hug each other like lost lovers for make up . My passion lies in you ..the way you inspire me , motivate me each day to excel in whatever i am doing . My strength lies in you the way you look into my eyes wen i get weak and assure me that i cant loose the hope and charge me with all divine energy .. I find my world in ur embrace .. This purity of relationship i feel wen i and you do things for each other without any expectations and unconditional makes me feel the power of spirituality ..you have taught me to smile in pain and be calm then ..this power within i realized wen i held you for the first time and still i feel it ..i feel some kind of firm supernatural power flowing in my veins , blood.. wenever u fall sick or fall down i get strongness in me to smile keeping all pain inside me..   My world lies in you .. I love you my darling daughter "yuvakshi" you are my great teacher and love of life ..and i feel so proud to admit that for the first time in my life " i am in love and i am rising in this love with each day passing and each moment growing , thanks for making me such a strong person and yes a "COMPLETE WOMAN" love mumma.

Who is modern girl for you ?
1. One who wear western clothes
2. One who is working
4. One who has her own opinion
5 . One who refuses to be dominated
6. One who is fighting for her own identity
7. One who is fighting for her existence
8. One who is focused in life
9. One who is running her house financially
10. One who refuses to be victim of domestic violence, ****** harassment, gender biased ness
Why for every single mishap in our society we often hear comments like .. She was trying to be modern , who told her to work why she cant take care of her responsibility at home after all females are made for this and mind you this is nature law that's why they are soft coz nature wants them to take care of soft things .. Lolz ...irony is in my opinion women are much more stronger than men .. Why wen a woman raise her voice we often hear comments either on her character or her stubborn ness ... ATTITUDE if she carries she is not made for society and if she doesn't  carry same people comment " she should have raised her voice after all she has rights " why this diplomacy ?

SHE...
She is soft like cotton
Yet she can be as hard as rock..
She is emotional yet she is powerful ..
She can cry yet she can fight with her tears ..
She melts with one please
Yet she can be stubborn wen required ..
She is always incomplete
Yet she is complete ..
She chirps all day , enjoy gossips yet she hold deep dark secrets of her own and her closed ones..
She knows her limits yet she crosses all her limits to see smile on your face ..
You were not her first love yet she loves you eternally..
Her first letter was not for you yet her all words are for you ..
You were not she dreamt of all her life yet she has dedicated herself with no complaints ..
She holds back all her tears wen you are smiling ..
She let her tears roll down wen u r crying even if she wants to laugh out loud ..
SHE is SHE ...

This is for us..
U and i never met still u exist in me ..
We are strangers still i feel i know u from ages
When i look at half moon i believe you are also looking at it with dream ful eyes
When this soft breeze brush against my body i feel you also feel the same ..feeling this soft cool breeze ..
Who are you ? How do you look like ? What is ur name ? Whr do u live ? Why thinking of you bring smile on my face ..
How do you inspire me ? Being complete strangers ... U inspire me to travel more ..to sing more .. To smile more .. To live more ..to be human more ..you bring  this writer outside and i cant resist to feel more..to express more ..to write more ..ohhhh whoever you are ...wherever you are ..u give me immense pleasure ..contentment.. I breathe more now ..breathe more not just to live life but to express life with in...
PS: i feel this feeling divine and feel blessed to have such butterflies in stomach..

You cage me and then you say " i am free" ,
You count every single breath i take and then you say " live your life ",
You cut all my rising thoughts and then you ask me" to be  opinionated",
you ask me to fly ..and then you cut my wings ...
You question my dressing and then you say " wear what makes you comfortable",
You say go and explore the world and then you " doubt on my trips ",
You say go and socialize. And then you " decide every person i meet " ,
You ask me to be independent and then " you want to keep note of my every single minute" ,
You say you love me and then " you customize this love as per your comfort",
You say we are equal and than " you keep telling me how i am comparable",
You say " you are free " and then "YOU CHAIN ME"
PS: This is for every one who is misunderstood between love and conditioned love

I close my eyes and i  still feel that spark in your eyes when we met for the first time ...those glances playing hide and seek ..those un due favors...those long and long hours conversation..the smell of everything around me then seem so powerful which i still feel deep inside .. Some part of me i left there , craving for everything to fall in right place then still hold me dee p.. Still a part of my heart is stuck there .. I was innocent you took my innocence away .. U took away a part of me, that part is still clinging there holding the rope of hope , still this moon reminds me of that window once we used to peep to look at our future dreaming.. looking at star lit sky and smiling, feeling that soft breeze and feeling that togetherness by gazing at full moon discussing facts and fiction of world..laughing at funny stories once we heard in childhood.. That song still reminds me of that strong feeling of future hope .. This season "winters" still reminds of those cozy moments we spent together ... Move on is one word still echoing ...but those memories are so beautiful to let go ..innocence is one word i dedicate to this beautiful past ... Holding close this and loosing the last piece of rope of hope coz innocence is gone .. Coz maturity overpowered innocence ..coz sweetness turned in to bitterness ..coz reality proved herself stronger than dreams one more time .. Coz you are not same person now ..coz i am not same person  now ..