you'll be the first person i'll tell
it's all a bunch of *******...
your just a hypocrite...
and i'm just a ****...
i would sing you songs until you stab me
i would only raise an octave at the sight of the blood.
i would write you poems until you cut off my fingers,
i would put the pen in my mouth and write with my teeth if i had to.
you could run away
and i could follow.

you said "i love you" sounds to fake.
and "i hate you" sounds just right.
and i won't lie,
it's a long walk from my house to yours.

i would fight your boyfriend if i had to,
and you could be my best friend if you wanted to,
but we both know
that im an introvert
and your that weird thing
to where you like to talk to everyone.

and i guess im typing and babbling now,
but that just explains the fact
you told me to calm down,
and stop smoking
cuz you thought i would get cancer or something.

but i was young and didn't think i had to care about that stuff
now im older and know that i should.

over and over
words come washing over me
i try to cover
myself.
but once again i am reminded
that u are gone
and im the bad guy
again.

and if i could take you back
what then?
your heart would still have the scars
of being left behind
im more sorry than ever
ya know
and i know i could never
change all the times i told you i loved you
because they were heartfelt
and true
because of you
i dont know where i am anymore
and im scared you will move on
and not give me another chance
to prove to you
what i really am
what we could really be
please speak to me

the thing i regret the most
is l o s i n g you.
i held the most beautiful flower in my hands
and tossed it to the wind.
how cool it was to be your best friend.
thank you for that.
and iv’e tried mustering the courage to say something to you
but every time i see that blank look
on your beautiful face
i want to to stab myself for what
I did.
i did this to us…
didn’t i?
but if we are strangers,
would you let me meet you again.
if i bumped in to you by “accident”
and said sorry in a way that made you talk
to me
how would you respond?
if i was given the chance to rid myself of this anger and resentment,
would you take me back then?
if i wrote books of poetry,
and every one of them were labeled
"SORRY"
would you take me back then?
i can’t take this anymore,
she isn’t for me,
you were…
i see that now.
grant me your forgiveness,
i understand if you
don’t.
but just know that i am sorry
even if sorry isn’t
enough.

Me                                                                                                                 You
Dogs                                                                                                      Cats
Angry                                                                                                      Happy
Sad                                                                                                            Sassy
Tall                                                                                                         Short
Short hair                                                                                          Long hair
Dependent                                                                                 Independent
Needy                                                                                           Self-sufficient
Writer                                                                                                 All-around
Okay                                                                                            Amazing
Blah                                                                                                           B.L.A
Ugly                                                                                                      Beautiful
Annoying                                                                                         Cute
****                                                                                                        Nice
Straight forward                                                               Sometimes confusing
"I love you"                                                                                          **?

A waterfall of brown
Strands and locks.
Sometimes curving,
Or just flowing.
Down a bank of pebbles,
Like water from a stream.
I love the way the
Individual hairs like
Water droplets splash
From the rest of the river.