What if, that day
You had told me what you wanted us to be?
What if you had spoken your truth
Let me in on your thoughts about us?
Maybe then,
I wouldn’t have walked away in anger.
Maybe then,
This silence wouldn’t feel so heavy.

let
me
breathe
easily.

I was just a little girl
Watching chaos unravel, helplessly
Confusion became a daily routine
Silence, my only defense
And I honed the art of observing pain.

Day by day
I saved up pieces of disappointment
Until the jar began to crack
Spilling exhaustion
Hardening into quiet rebellion
Sharpening into well-trained disgust.

We stopped looking, even beneath the bed
Where is the sorry we deserved?
Where is the responsibility you clung to so tightly?
Where is all the change you once promised?

But whatever
You're here, technically
And us?
We've mastered the art of needing nothing from you.

I need to hold you close
to wrap you in my warmth,
to color your world in golden hues,
to fill the quiet spaces in your soul,
to whisper, I'll always be here.

Apperantly
Home isn't enough
You need to know how to care
A commitment to stay
To keep choosing the way back
Not just when it's easy
Unless
You'll get lost
And destroy what was meant to last.

If forgetting were easy
I wouldn’t be here
Rewriting the same pain
With the same tired hand
As if one more line
Could erase you from my mind

Is it possible that one day,
you call my name by accident?
Is it possible, on a quiet night,
you miss me, even for a moment?

One day,
You'll meet someone
As kind as you are
But just as cruel, too.

The heaviest weight
A heart can bear.

Or perhaps,
A path God carves
For kindness to step in.

I used to be whole, then fell apart
Blended with feelings that weren’t mine.
But look! I’ve turned softer now
Warmer with every touch.

I'm running
Trying to catch peace that never arrives
Hiding between shadows
So I don't have to remember

I'm running
Erasing footsteps in exhaustion
Convincing myself
That distance will make the pain smaller
But the farther I go
The more real it becomes

No one is chasing
Except the truth keeps waiting
That it wasn't you I left behind
It was me.

Then I stop
Let the heart hurt
Let the pain speak
I won't run anymore

I love it here
Where the shore meets the endless blue
My eyes linger on your beauty
My ear surrenders to the whisper of your waves
My heart drifts, waiting
When will you call me back?

But wait,
Are you the sea?
Or the love I cannot name?

I know her
She has long black hair with soft waves
I know she loves her face now
it looks healthier.

She is smiling
More sincerely than yesterday
The weight has lifted
Because she finally let go of what she once held too tight.

I know her
The woman in my mirror
Has committed to living in peace
Happiness will be the bonus
And I love her more than yesterday
Even more so tomorrow than today.

I used to lie on a bicep
Wrapped in the natural scent of skin

Turns out a pillow isn't that bad
While a blanket is definitely the best comfort ever.

Trust me
Or maybe don’t.

He will love you,
Cook you a meal laced with warmth
Wrap you in the kindest embrace
Call you his queen
His sweetest love.
And soon, you’ll believe
He is the one.

But love,
There is a shadow trailing him.
Perhaps he loves you
But he also loves the thrill
The rush of fleeting hands
Whispers not yet familiar
Sparks I never knew.

He says,
"I never meant to hurt anyone."
Yet somehow
He always does.

I wish we never met
Even if fate led us there.
I wish we never talked
Even if the words came easy.
I wish we let silence win
Even if the conversation pulled us in.
I wish we never saw the signs
Even if they glowed so bright.
I wish we never felt that spark
Even if it burned so right.

But everything happened
And still, I wish I could turn back time
Even if I would never know you at all.