So here's the scene.

I have a girl,
And she's my world.
But here's the thing,
For the longest time,
I've liked this girl,
(we'll call her Kay and my girl, May)
For quite some time.
Eight years if you wanna be on the dime.

And I love May,
But desire Kay.
It's something I struggle with day-to-day.

I want to leave and run for Kay,
But there is nothing wrong with May.
I'm not for sure if I should run.
But when I'm with Kay we have so much fun.

It's a real kind of thing,
And you can feel her feelings
But on the outside,
She's just looking at the ceiling.

Why do things have to be so confusing?
Does God just find it that amusing?


I know exactly what to do.

Love her with all of my heart.
But that's really the easiest part.

I know exactly what to do.
I just don't know who.

How do you know love even exists?
Really.
What the hell is it?
How the **** do you even know that it's not some ******* chemical process that only exists inside your brain?

Is it a connection between two people? Or can just one person love another?
Does that even qualify as love?

How do you know that love is even love?
What is it?
Is that just a title of a good feeling?

I give up on this "love" ****. You don't care about me. Clearly. At all.

Bye.

I wonder what you'd do if you saw these..

I wonder if you'd be creeped out..
I wonder if you'd think I'm crazy..
I wonder if you'd actually appreciate them..
I wonder if you'd finally appreciate me..
I wonder if you'd still talk to me..
I wonder if you'd understand me..
I wonder if you'd realize I actually do love you..
I wonder if you'd even accept my love..
I wonder if you'd enjoy them..
I wonder if you'd re-read them..

But most of all,
I wonder if you'd love me back.

You know that feeling,
When you love someone?
But you have that feeling,
That you'll never be with her?

Then you finally tell her,
When you're the best of friends,
And everything just crumbles,
But you still know that you're sure.

You know that you still love her,
And you can't even deny it.
You know she's so **** perfect,
That your mind turns to a riot.

Fighting back and forth between,
Your lover and your dream.
Fighting to follow the rules,
And try not to make a scene.

No matter what you do,
She's always on your mind.
Even at your happiest,
She's in there all the time.

You just can't escape the feeling,
That's been brewing up inside.
You don't know what to do with it,
Knowing it can't hide.

Try to find another girl,
To erase what you never had.
But was so ******* close
That it messes with your head.

You know that feeling,
When you love someone?
But you have that feeling,
That you're not the one?

i'll always be here
don't worry
and i'll be waiting
but there's no hurry

don't rush yourself
just take your time

'cause i'll be waiting
and there's no hurry
i'll always be here
so please don't worry

So it happened..
I couldn't believe it..

No way.
Right?

But yeah. Yes way.
I kissed her and she kissed back..

They we were.. Two silly kids who just wanna have fun..
Snuck out late and laid on the dock right out on the river.

Just talking and relating and laughing and shivering..
Man it was cold out.

But we both noticed it.. She'd move closer and so would I.. You could just tell by that look in her eyes..
God she's so beautiful..

Moving closer
Shivering together
Warmth was the mutual unspoken and logical excuse..
We both knew what each other thought.

She got me talking about her..
Got me to explain how I felt..

"Here it is." I thought..
"Don't miss this. You WILL regret it.." ... "Okay.."

And off I went..
Telling her everything about how much I adore her.. There she was.. Wrapped in my arms, laying with me on that dock, floating on the river, shivering..
As I spoke, she squeezed me tighter and pulled me in..

Then I looked into her eyes and spoke to her softly.. Leaned towards her and watched her eyes close and lips reach for mine.. And we kissed.. Perfectly..

She's the one.. The one that I cannot ever stop thinking of.. Always in there smiling at me and begging me to be with her.. The best time of my life.. And there we were.. Together.. Sharing a perfect moment..



But there's a problem..
I'm already in love..
How does one simply fall out of one and into another?
God. Why's this have to be so complicated?

I feel awful.. At the same time, so **** relieved.. She wants me and I want her.. I never would have known..

So what do I do..?

There's no other way I'd rather spend my nights than by your side.
There's no other place I'd rather be than in your mind.
And there's no other song I'd love to sing than "you are mine."

Why can I not stop thinking about you?
Everything I do, there you are with your eyes so blue.
I try to stray away but my mind takes me with you.
You take me to that place,
So far away.
You take me to that place,
Where chaos is at bay.
And I'll be honest,
It's rather hard to say.
But I still love you,
And I hope that's okay.

I don't know how or why,
But you take me high.
No matter what we do,
No matter what we say,
Anything that invloves you makes my day.

When you look me in the eyes,
A part of me softly dies.
When you laugh at something I say,
All my worries are at bay.

I know what to call it,
But I don't know what to say.
I love you, girl,
Do you feel the same way?

I awoke
and saw you there
still asleep,
with messy hair
it's 4 am
why am I up?
I guess I just can't get enough
I kiss your lips and you kiss back
and that's when love starts to attack

What is love?
Is love something you have,
or something you crave?

When I say crave, I mean you cannot stop thinking about her.
You get that knot in your stomach and you feel so **** weak when you see her face.
Even if it's only in your mind.

When you hear her voice and your heart beats faster.
When you make her smile and your heart melts.
When you make her laugh and your heart nearly feels content enough with your life that it stops beating.
Seriously though.

Is love when you see her and you see the best time of your life?
Is love when you remember every word she's said to you?
Is love when you aren't supposed to think about her but your heart just can't help it?

What exactly is love?
Because,
I honestly think,
that,
girl,
I love you.

I'll listen to anything you want to talk about,
I'm there for you when everyone else is out.

You talk to me about how you feel,
About other guys..
You must know it kills me.
But I don't say anything,
Because I don't want to interrupt.

You say you can read me,
Then why can't you see that I'm in love with you?
I know you know me.
You may know that I love you.
But you act like I'm not even there..

Although you know I'd give up anything,
Anything to just sit next to you.
And hear your voice.