we're toxic
regressive
yet i can't stop
i tried
fervently fighting to get out
but like quicksand i fall into you
i need to know if you're okay
if you're breathing
to ride alongside parallelly
and reside in your aura

a cloud
I dream of
touching you
swimming around you, in you, with you
I want to feel your rain
rain on me, around me, in me, with me
cleanse me, grow me, work me
make me your dream
let my presence fill you
like a cloud on a gloomy day
so self-assured that you catch me
I'm slipping
don't let me slip
catch me

What if you came back and said sorry
What if you realized all you've done
What if you didn't do nothing wrong at all
What if it's just a misunderstanding
What if I got it wrong
What if there weren't any what ifs
then...
I'd open the doors for you
You would stay this time
You would be mine

You've lost a pillar of your home, you've lost a pillar of you
Someone who did not only hold the structure of your being, but she kept the lights on
She closed the curtains during vulnerable times, your safety was secured
When your mind went into dark spaces, she made sure you ventilate, as a reminder of the gift of life
She was your pillar, she was your life
How could you ever heal? You never healed
Fervently trying to replace the bare bones of your existence, you struggled
You took the highway to join her as the clarity you probed resided within her
You're okay now, reborn into life once again