I lost myself in the ways that I tried to love you
& I lost myself in the ways that I tried to make you love me
I lost myself through bruised knuckles
& blood-stained wrists
I lost myself that time, at your friend’s house, when I said no,
& you didn’t listen
I lost myself in our endless fights
& how you always made me feel like it was my fault
I lost myself the night you grabbed me in the arena
& left “your mark” for two weeks
I found myself the day we said goodbye
& it felt like I could breathe again
I found myself when then the scars started to fade
& the bruises disappeared
I found myself when your words no longer haunted me
& the thought of you didn’t break my heart anymore
I found myself when I stopped thinking about you
& started thinking about myself
Oct 28, 2014
Oct 28, 2014 at 9:50 PM UTC
I lost myself in the ways that I tried to love you
& I lost myself in the ways that I tried to make you love me
I lost myself through bruised knuckles
& blood-stained wrists
I lost myself that time, at your friend’s house, when I said no,
& you didn’t listen
I lost myself in our endless fights
& how you always made me feel like it was my fault
I lost myself the night you grabbed me in the arena
& left “your mark” for two weeks
I found myself the day we said goodbye
& it felt like I could breathe again
I found myself when then the scars started to fade
& the bruises disappeared
I found myself when your words no longer haunted me
& the thought of you didn’t break my heart anymore
I found myself when I stopped thinking about you
& started thinking about myself
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