sometimes, when I'm in a crowded place
and the voices just get too loud
I just wanna leave. in that moment of
panic
I wanna walk away
just turnaround walkaway
and never come back
go find a rock somewhere
in front of the ocean
and I wanna just sit there and smoke like
six cigarettes
but I never do
I just let my eyes cloud over
and cringe at the peak
of every over-rehearsed laugh
sometimes it gets so bad
I grind my teeth til my bones hurt
like, on the inside
like when my dad told me today
"you know, you should try making more eye contact with people"
and I nearly lost it
I swear my teeth are still humming
and I try to tell him why without crying
and he doesn't understand
and he keeps trying to catch my eye
don't try to help me
and for god's sake don't
please don't
try to ******* fix me
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 4:08 AM UTC
sometimes, when I'm in a crowded place
and the voices just get too loud
I just wanna leave. in that moment of
panic
I wanna walk away
just turnaround walkaway
and never come back
go find a rock somewhere
in front of the ocean
and I wanna just sit there and smoke like
six cigarettes
but I never do
I just let my eyes cloud over
and cringe at the peak
of every over-rehearsed laugh
sometimes it gets so bad
I grind my teeth til my bones hurt
like, on the inside
like when my dad told me today
"you know, you should try making more eye contact with people"
and I nearly lost it
I swear my teeth are still humming
and I try to tell him why without crying
and he doesn't understand
and he keeps trying to catch my eye
don't try to help me
and for god's sake don't
please don't
try to ******* fix me
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