Misunderstood.
I asked,
Not for you.
A question that tore this apart,
An answer could have saved this heart.
I was decided against.
Why didn't I know what to ask?
Why didn't I know not to ask?
STUPIDITY.
In the world,
I am a dreamer,
Torn between what I was,
And what I will never be.
Being "nice" or "beautiful,"
But is beauty all that matters?
I don't feel it:
No beauty,
No intelligence,
No worth.
Wanted:
The only thing I can never be.
Later...
You took back a word.
You claimed you lied.
Which one?
Was it the promise or the answer?
Or is it a false apology?
Flawless my acting was,
Against everything I felt that day.
The pieces of my heart are small,
And it will never amount to enough.
Hopeless when a friendship turns bitter--
*--I shouldn't have asked.
I should have been more introverted.
I should not have relied on my instincts.*
The wind blows,
Teasing my hair
And drying my tears,
But all I think about is lost...
...Was your answer the lie?
Sep 29, 2014
Sep 29, 2014 at 9:00 PM UTC
Misunderstood.
I asked,
Not for you.
A question that tore this apart,
An answer could have saved this heart.
I was decided against.
Why didn't I know what to ask?
Why didn't I know not to ask?
STUPIDITY.
In the world,
I am a dreamer,
Torn between what I was,
And what I will never be.
Being "nice" or "beautiful,"
But is beauty all that matters?
I don't feel it:
No beauty,
No intelligence,
No worth.
Wanted:
The only thing I can never be.
Later...
You took back a word.
You claimed you lied.
Which one?
Was it the promise or the answer?
Or is it a false apology?
Flawless my acting was,
Against everything I felt that day.
The pieces of my heart are small,
And it will never amount to enough.
Hopeless when a friendship turns bitter--
*--I shouldn't have asked.
I should have been more introverted.
I should not have relied on my instincts.*
The wind blows,
Teasing my hair
And drying my tears,
But all I think about is lost...
...Was your answer the lie?
Aporia: Professing to be at a loss as to what to say, where to begin, or how to express something; true or feigned doubt or deliberation about an issue
