Being stupidly tired but being scared stupid to fall asleep.
Its so much more than falling.
Its tripping on the drugs that my sobriety has taken away from me.
Watching too many scary movies that give me the edge I think I need.
When I know the edge of the bed is more than enough for me.
My mattress is lost at sea and I'm the dammed captain.
Just let me ******* sleep.
When I went mental my mom called for reinforcement, her brother.
I called uncle but it didn't stop him.
I understand he wanted to help,
I understand he felt connected because both of our father's abandoned ship.
Just because you have four golden children doesn't mean you get to pick me to be your black sheep.
I won't let you fix me.
I'm not on board to sail the 7 seas with you and your perfect family.
You see, I am a ship wreck.
I'm good at not asking for help,
And my mattress is starting to sink.
Sep 18, 2014
Sep 18, 2014 at 6:26 PM UTC
Being stupidly tired but being scared stupid to fall asleep.
Its so much more than falling.
Its tripping on the drugs that my sobriety has taken away from me.
Watching too many scary movies that give me the edge I think I need.
When I know the edge of the bed is more than enough for me.
My mattress is lost at sea and I'm the dammed captain.
Just let me ******* sleep.
When I went mental my mom called for reinforcement, her brother.
I called uncle but it didn't stop him.
I understand he wanted to help,
I understand he felt connected because both of our father's abandoned ship.
Just because you have four golden children doesn't mean you get to pick me to be your black sheep.
I won't let you fix me.
I'm not on board to sail the 7 seas with you and your perfect family.
You see, I am a ship wreck.
I'm good at not asking for help,
And my mattress is starting to sink.
