I'm writing for the hell of it
for the sake of writing
for the sake of escape
from the begging ideas
taunting my already forsaken mind.
The brain,
or the mind?
One in the same.
One the center of my universe,
cause and effect,
motion, inertia,
creation of my entirety.
The other,
breaking me down,
with each passing thought.
My world on fire.
My spirit, my being, my reason for life.
My aching for death.
Yes,
one in the same.
Working together, to control each other.
forcing me into every god forsaken breath
that I've never wished to take.
Yet, building within me this
immense love.
Forcing me to contort my hideous face
into this god forsaken smile.
No idea what to feel.
Physically, or emotionally.
Hurts to breathe.
Hurts a lot more not to.
Hurts to love.
Hurts a lot more not to.
Simple solutions.
Love with all of my mind.
heart, body, and soul.
Live with all of my brain.
heart pumping, body moving, soul loving.
One in the same.
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 12:31 AM UTC
I'm writing for the hell of it
for the sake of writing
for the sake of escape
from the begging ideas
taunting my already forsaken mind.
The brain,
or the mind?
One in the same.
One the center of my universe,
cause and effect,
motion, inertia,
creation of my entirety.
The other,
breaking me down,
with each passing thought.
My world on fire.
My spirit, my being, my reason for life.
My aching for death.
Yes,
one in the same.
Working together, to control each other.
forcing me into every god forsaken breath
that I've never wished to take.
Yet, building within me this
immense love.
Forcing me to contort my hideous face
into this god forsaken smile.
No idea what to feel.
Physically, or emotionally.
Hurts to breathe.
Hurts a lot more not to.
Hurts to love.
Hurts a lot more not to.
Simple solutions.
Love with all of my mind.
heart, body, and soul.
Live with all of my brain.
heart pumping, body moving, soul loving.
One in the same.
