***Too tired to fall asleep,
I stared at a vivid flickering screen
And forced myself to eat.
1:15 a.m to 4:45 a.m
The hours- I didn't notice them,
But asleep I almost fell.
I dragged myself into slumber
And into a trance I clambered,
The blinding darkness I remember.
I awoke moments later
Under my demons' satire,
Stuck in a crater.
Everything was a blur
Four walls were six saboteurs,
And colours astir.
All attempts to cry for help
And get away from a faint death knell,
Just shoved me deeper into my shell.
Uselessly trying to move around,
My gasps were so profound
And I could hear the deafening sound.
I tasted my own fear
And flung it with tears,
The end must have been near.
The agitation was intense
Sweat ran down by head
And negativity within me spread.
I was trapped inside myself,
To a gust of wind against my chest
I almost succumbed to be at rest.
And then I ran as fast as I could,
Although blind, I said I would
Escape this maddening noose.
Silenced screams were now heard
And out loud I said "cursed"
I was finally free from paralysis unheard.***
Aug 24, 2014
Aug 24, 2014 at 2:44 AM UTC
***Too tired to fall asleep,
I stared at a vivid flickering screen
And forced myself to eat.
1:15 a.m to 4:45 a.m
The hours- I didn't notice them,
But asleep I almost fell.
I dragged myself into slumber
And into a trance I clambered,
The blinding darkness I remember.
I awoke moments later
Under my demons' satire,
Stuck in a crater.
Everything was a blur
Four walls were six saboteurs,
And colours astir.
All attempts to cry for help
And get away from a faint death knell,
Just shoved me deeper into my shell.
Uselessly trying to move around,
My gasps were so profound
And I could hear the deafening sound.
I tasted my own fear
And flung it with tears,
The end must have been near.
The agitation was intense
Sweat ran down by head
And negativity within me spread.
I was trapped inside myself,
To a gust of wind against my chest
I almost succumbed to be at rest.
And then I ran as fast as I could,
Although blind, I said I would
Escape this maddening noose.
Silenced screams were now heard
And out loud I said "cursed"
I was finally free from paralysis unheard.***
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