Fiercely I n d e p e n d e n t
I am as stubborn as the Aries Ram
which just so happens to be my zodiac sign.
I don't care what others might think of me
but at the same time I live to please.
I've found that I can really only rely on my family
but my friends care far too much
far too fleetingly.
I am blunt and **will call you out on your ********
as nicely as possible.
I can't handle tears even when they're my own
and they always sound like
**short
dying
gasps**
but that's what they are, right?
It's your lungs and eyes dying because your heart was too dumb to listen to your own brain.
My brain was only trying to look out for me.
I'm not sorry that I've failed it way too many times.
My mind constantly revolves around myself
because I'm way too proud and vain
of my way too small accomplishments.
I want to be known as Great
and I am not ashamed to admit it.
No matter what I do
be it the purest good or the wickedest bad
it will be great and jaw dropping.
I am extremely conceited.
And shallow
And a hypocrite
And a liar
And will always keep score
(By the way as of 2012, I had 37 points and you 34. I'm still winning.)
But I own up to it and will always try to be better.
I am also determined
And hardworking
And persistent
Which means that I will get farther than most people.
In 2001 the No Child Left Behind Act was implemented in primary and secondary schools in the USA to ensure exactly what its name says.
But there are always children left behind.
There are always people left behind
And I will not be one of them.
And no matter how conceited and full of myself I am
*I will always find your name written in between the lines of my poetry
whispered with every breath that I take
crumpled on sheets of paper that I've long since thrown away*
because every line that I wrote was never good enough for you.
The summer before my senior year
I tried to isolate myself from my friends and family as much as possible.
Not because I was depressed
but because I knew that I had to learn how to be happy all by myself.
I love them all to death
but I know how much it hurts
when you *lose yourself in another person
so much that you can't find a way out*
or even a way to heal once you've escaped.
I'm hard to love enough as it is
so I did it to train myself for the times in life
when I know that I will be alone.
But I was taught that **there's a difference between being alone
and being lonely**
so which one are you?
Jul 17, 2014
Jul 17, 2014 at 4:15 PM UTC
Fiercely I n d e p e n d e n t
I am as stubborn as the Aries Ram
which just so happens to be my zodiac sign.
I don't care what others might think of me
but at the same time I live to please.
I've found that I can really only rely on my family
but my friends care far too much
far too fleetingly.
I am blunt and **will call you out on your ********
as nicely as possible.
I can't handle tears even when they're my own
and they always sound like
**short
dying
gasps**
but that's what they are, right?
It's your lungs and eyes dying because your heart was too dumb to listen to your own brain.
My brain was only trying to look out for me.
I'm not sorry that I've failed it way too many times.
My mind constantly revolves around myself
because I'm way too proud and vain
of my way too small accomplishments.
I want to be known as Great
and I am not ashamed to admit it.
No matter what I do
be it the purest good or the wickedest bad
it will be great and jaw dropping.
I am extremely conceited.
And shallow
And a hypocrite
And a liar
And will always keep score
(By the way as of 2012, I had 37 points and you 34. I'm still winning.)
But I own up to it and will always try to be better.
I am also determined
And hardworking
And persistent
Which means that I will get farther than most people.
In 2001 the No Child Left Behind Act was implemented in primary and secondary schools in the USA to ensure exactly what its name says.
But there are always children left behind.
There are always people left behind
And I will not be one of them.
And no matter how conceited and full of myself I am
*I will always find your name written in between the lines of my poetry
whispered with every breath that I take
crumpled on sheets of paper that I've long since thrown away*
because every line that I wrote was never good enough for you.
The summer before my senior year
I tried to isolate myself from my friends and family as much as possible.
Not because I was depressed
but because I knew that I had to learn how to be happy all by myself.
I love them all to death
but I know how much it hurts
when you *lose yourself in another person
so much that you can't find a way out*
or even a way to heal once you've escaped.
I'm hard to love enough as it is
so I did it to train myself for the times in life
when I know that I will be alone.
But I was taught that **there's a difference between being alone
and being lonely**
so which one are you?
Really just a ramble because this started off as so many different ideas that I tried to merge into one. Not one of the greatest things that I have written.
July 9th, 2014
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