well not really… though I told
every grinning green Catholic soul
at my school I did that and more
I did smell the wine on her breath
and watch her trip into the trailer
her gown hitting the floor
before she closed the door
her body as white as the fake snow
spitting onto the set, and
as cold perhaps
I was sixteen and she was fifty one
this was my one and only, her last,
flick, not fling, though I would have
cut off an arm for it to have been so
not the arm she touched
in our one immortal scene together…
her electric hand,
all the blond hairs on my forearm standing at attention
me wondering if the camera caught
their helpless vertical veer
it mattered not, most of the scene
landed not on the screen, but
the cutting room floor, my two lines slashed to one
my 48 seconds with her shaved to 22
I did not cry when I heard she died,
twenty months later, but my lie seemed soiled
once she was in the ground
I confessed to Father Ryan
he was silent when
I asked what to tell
the fools who believed
the dying star lay with me
simply because she said,
“Call me Vivien, not Ms Leigh”
Dec 12, 2013
Dec 12, 2013 at 11:09 AM UTC
well not really… though I told
every grinning green Catholic soul
at my school I did that and more
I did smell the wine on her breath
and watch her trip into the trailer
her gown hitting the floor
before she closed the door
her body as white as the fake snow
spitting onto the set, and
as cold perhaps
I was sixteen and she was fifty one
this was my one and only, her last,
flick, not fling, though I would have
cut off an arm for it to have been so
not the arm she touched
in our one immortal scene together…
her electric hand,
all the blond hairs on my forearm standing at attention
me wondering if the camera caught
their helpless vertical veer
it mattered not, most of the scene
landed not on the screen, but
the cutting room floor, my two lines slashed to one
my 48 seconds with her shaved to 22
I did not cry when I heard she died,
twenty months later, but my lie seemed soiled
once she was in the ground
I confessed to Father Ryan
he was silent when
I asked what to tell
the fools who believed
the dying star lay with me
simply because she said,
“Call me Vivien, not Ms Leigh”
