I have a sadness so deep and empty it's hides just below the surface
This sadness consumes and eats away my soul and I fill the void the only way I know how
I inhale the the smoke and breath out the blackest parts of my existence
When the smoke stopped working I started burning herbs to exercise my demons
When the burning herbs stopped lighting up the darkness persistent even in they day I took to alchemy
I mixed a potion so potent I never remembered the pain and darkness that consumed me night and day
Eventually the potions were not enough I found this magic pill
The pill killed the pain but only when I realized I couldn't quit did I find out I had lost myself so wholly and unimaginably that even the people who said they would never leave and never judge were gone
When I woke for one unbearable second I realized I had pushed away everything
I had given up everything for one thing
I'm stuck trying to give up one thing for everything
All I want is to give up this addiction for the one person who hasn't given up one me
May 13
May 13, 2026 at 7:55 PM UTC
I have a sadness so deep and empty it's hides just below the surface
This sadness consumes and eats away my soul and I fill the void the only way I know how
I inhale the the smoke and breath out the blackest parts of my existence
When the smoke stopped working I started burning herbs to exercise my demons
When the burning herbs stopped lighting up the darkness persistent even in they day I took to alchemy
I mixed a potion so potent I never remembered the pain and darkness that consumed me night and day
Eventually the potions were not enough I found this magic pill
The pill killed the pain but only when I realized I couldn't quit did I find out I had lost myself so wholly and unimaginably that even the people who said they would never leave and never judge were gone
When I woke for one unbearable second I realized I had pushed away everything
I had given up everything for one thing
I'm stuck trying to give up one thing for everything
All I want is to give up this addiction for the one person who hasn't given up one me
I am trying everyday to let my addictions consume me but the pain I feel is so deep I don't know if I will ever get out alive
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