I only wish I could ever love myself the way I've always loved you
If I Loved Myself the way I loved you maybe by now I would of realized you don't love me back
maybe I would have noticed your facade crack
that you weren't the you I thought I knew and that the only you I could of ever fallen in love with is the version of you I sculpted in my head
The version of you that's kind and caring not judgemental for me sharing my thoughts and writings
The you that supported me no matter how far I had fallen the version of you that would help me find those silver linings as if the dark would never swallow me whole like a black hole swallows all the lighting around
If I Loved myself the way I loved you maybe tonight I wouldn't be sitting here on the edge of the bed silently sobbing as sadness seeps from every pore wondering if I could of done more to make you love me
Maybe it's time I accept I need to quit loving you more than I love myself maybe it's time I start to see all the things in me you never did
the me that is kind the me tries desperately not to judge the me that supports my friends and loved ones even when I can't support myself the me that knows my thoughts matter and that my writing can be the voice of those with a noose tied tight around their vocal cords
No…no more maybes it's time I start to love myself the way I love you
May 10
May 10, 2026 at 12:09 PM UTC
I only wish I could ever love myself the way I've always loved you
If I Loved Myself the way I loved you maybe by now I would of realized you don't love me back
maybe I would have noticed your facade crack
that you weren't the you I thought I knew and that the only you I could of ever fallen in love with is the version of you I sculpted in my head
The version of you that's kind and caring not judgemental for me sharing my thoughts and writings
The you that supported me no matter how far I had fallen the version of you that would help me find those silver linings as if the dark would never swallow me whole like a black hole swallows all the lighting around
If I Loved myself the way I loved you maybe tonight I wouldn't be sitting here on the edge of the bed silently sobbing as sadness seeps from every pore wondering if I could of done more to make you love me
Maybe it's time I accept I need to quit loving you more than I love myself maybe it's time I start to see all the things in me you never did
the me that is kind the me tries desperately not to judge the me that supports my friends and loved ones even when I can't support myself the me that knows my thoughts matter and that my writing can be the voice of those with a noose tied tight around their vocal cords
No…no more maybes it's time I start to love myself the way I love you