Here we are, starting fresh
But I don't remember what it feels like to feel whole
How do you fix a hole in your chest?
A band-aid?A cold compress?
If a tree falls in the wood
Would it make a sound,
if no one was around to swing the axe
To cut off my head and stop the train of thoughts.
To derail the track and divert from the one-track mind I have?
Having to go through things
that make you strong weakens you
It's a catch-22
so, what do you do?
The flame, the heat
licking at my skin to a beat
a rhythm, a release
The flame consumes me
I eat the pain or it eats me
A cavernous, carnivorous beast
with an insatiable appetite
and I'm just a bite and I'm gone
As whom I once was goes up in flames
I'm trying to change, to grow
To tie this all up in a neat, tidy bow
But I'll never know right and wrong
weak and strong
A binary that has complexities
and shades of grey
And I just want to be okay
I can't keep burning through life this way
Will it ever stop?
There can't be more shoes that drop
I need hope that all will be well
That my heart will swell and fill the hole
I need to accept what I can't control
The secrets are told
There's nothing new to learn or unfold
I need piece to gather the pieces of my soul
Or I will burn until there is nothing left
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 11:03 AM UTC
Here we are, starting fresh
But I don't remember what it feels like to feel whole
How do you fix a hole in your chest?
A band-aid?A cold compress?
If a tree falls in the wood
Would it make a sound,
if no one was around to swing the axe
To cut off my head and stop the train of thoughts.
To derail the track and divert from the one-track mind I have?
Having to go through things
that make you strong weakens you
It's a catch-22
so, what do you do?
The flame, the heat
licking at my skin to a beat
a rhythm, a release
The flame consumes me
I eat the pain or it eats me
A cavernous, carnivorous beast
with an insatiable appetite
and I'm just a bite and I'm gone
As whom I once was goes up in flames
I'm trying to change, to grow
To tie this all up in a neat, tidy bow
But I'll never know right and wrong
weak and strong
A binary that has complexities
and shades of grey
And I just want to be okay
I can't keep burning through life this way
Will it ever stop?
There can't be more shoes that drop
I need hope that all will be well
That my heart will swell and fill the hole
I need to accept what I can't control
The secrets are told
There's nothing new to learn or unfold
I need piece to gather the pieces of my soul
Or I will burn until there is nothing left
