
Loneliness is quite...strange.
It doesn't have any dramatic entrance,
doesn't really demand attention.
But somehow-
It manages to fill 'EVERYTHING'
The more the people surround me,
the more it engulfs me;
Into a realm where nothing
But darkness and solitude exist.
So I smile like it's fine,
respond like it doesn't matter.
While a part of me
Slowly fades into the silence
Because in the end,
It becomes the only familiar thing
In this ever-changing world
May 25
May 25, 2026 at 11:59 PM UTC
Sleep.
Something that comes softly
to others-
But to me...
it's like a stranger,
arriving hesitantly at the doorstep.
My mind-
replaying the day's events,
making up rather berserk stories,
counting regrets.
Turning silence into noise.
And when sleep finally arrives-
It's never gentle.
Never meant to arrive...
Just exhaustion
disguised as so-called peace.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 11:03 PM UTC
Here we are, starting fresh
But I don't remember what it feels like to feel whole
How do you fix a hole in your chest?
A band-aid?A cold compress?
If a tree falls in the wood
Would it make a sound,
if no one was around to swing the axe
To cut off my head and stop the train of thoughts.
To derail the track and divert from the one-track mind I have?
Having to go through things
that make you strong weakens you
It's a catch-22
so, what do you do?
The flame, the heat
licking at my skin to a beat
a rhythm, a release
The flame consumes me
I eat the pain or it eats me
A cavernous, carnivorous beast
with an insatiable appetite
and I'm just a bite and I'm gone
As whom I once was goes up in flames
I'm trying to change, to grow
To tie this all up in a neat, tidy bow
But I'll never know right and wrong
weak and strong
A binary that has complexities
and shades of grey
And I just want to be okay
I can't keep burning through life this way
Will it ever stop?
There can't be more shoes that drop
I need hope that all will be well
That my heart will swell and fill the hole
I need to accept what I can't control
The secrets are told
There's nothing new to learn or unfold
I need piece to gather the pieces of my soul
Or I will burn until there is nothing left
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 10:20 AM UTC
I changed the way I spoke,
the way I laughed,
even the way I saw myself—
all to fit into places
that never truly wanted me.
I became quieter for some,
louder for others,
anything but...real.
And the more I changed,
the more I lost myself...
Who I am...
Who I was...
So, one day,
I stopped adjusting myself
to match everyone else’s expectations.
Because for when you are the truest to yourself
you will fit in automatically where you belong.
And maybe that was the problem all along—
I was trying to belong everywhere
until I finally learned
to belong within myself first.
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 10:20 AM UTC
different
never
belong
feels
need
warmth
cold
right
others
myself
silence
life
everything
build
once
strong
cant
changed
even
fit
louder
stopped
because
yourself
maybe
trying
until
finally
within
loading
screen
mind
world
around
fear
trapped
change
yet
somehow
normal
want
dont
break
heart
scars
only
still
gone
whispers
gather
pieces
soul
why
hole
stop
flame
weak
told
nothing
same
cage
toxicity
wonder
standards
enough
someone
spoke
laughed
saw
places
truly
wanted
became
quieter
anything
butreal
lost
adjusting
match
everyone
expectations
truest
automatically
problem
everywhere
learned
website
password
shaking
hand
hovering
above
quote
before
loads
begins
countdown
heartbeat
races
ahead
result
itself
timer
slowly
reducing
unlike
anxiousness
keeps
increasing
brooding
kind
stress
suddenly
single
moment
dreams
pressure
behind
circle
marks
appear
magically
priorities
talk
judge
fills
stories
moments
lived
used
carry
threw
travel
lighter
opinions
stay
focus
stays
every
noise
deserves
answer
care
knows
caring
going
give
goals
reach
peace
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 10:20 AM UTC
It starts quietly—
a crack in the air
too small for anyone else to notice.
Then suddenly,
my chest tightens,
my lungs forget
how to breathe properly.
The walls feel closer.
The room begins to blur.
My heartbeat pounds so loudly
it drowns the world itself.
I become blind with fear,
deaf to reassurance,
dumb beneath the weight
of words I cannot force out.
Every sound cuts deeper.
Every thought moves faster.
Every second feels heavier
than the last.
And the cruelest part?
From the outside,
I still look “fine.”
May 24
May 24, 2026 at 10:20 AM UTC
It starts quietly—
a crack in the air
too small for anyone else to notice.
Then suddenly,
my chest tightens,
my lungs forget
how to breathe properly.
The walls feel closer.
The room begins to blur.
My heartbeat pounds so loudly
it drowns the world itself.
I become blind with fear,
deaf to reassurance,
dumb beneath the weight
of words I cannot force out.
Every sound cuts deeper.
Every thought moves faster.
Every second feels heavier
than the last.
And the cruelest part?
From the outside,
I still look “fine.”
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 9:38 PM UTC
different
never
belong
feels
need
warmth
cold
right
others
myself
silence
life
everything
build
once
strong
cant
changed
even
fit
louder
stopped
because
yourself
maybe
trying
until
finally
within
loading
screen
mind
world
around
fear
trapped
change
yet
somehow
normal
want
dont
break
heart
scars
only
still
gone
whispers
gather
pieces
soul
why
hole
stop
flame
weak
told
nothing
same
cage
toxicity
wonder
standards
enough
someone
spoke
laughed
saw
places
truly
wanted
became
quieter
anything
butreal
lost
adjusting
match
everyone
expectations
truest
automatically
problem
everywhere
learned
website
password
shaking
hand
hovering
above
quote
before
loads
begins
countdown
heartbeat
races
ahead
result
itself
timer
slowly
reducing
unlike
anxiousness
keeps
increasing
brooding
kind
stress
suddenly
single
moment
dreams
pressure
behind
circle
marks
appear
magically
priorities
talk
judge
fills
stories
moments
lived
used
carry
threw
travel
lighter
opinions
stay
focus
stays
every
noise
deserves
answer
care
knows
caring
going
give
goals
reach
peace
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 3:24 PM UTC
I changed the way I spoke,
the way I laughed,
even the way I saw myself—
all to fit into places
that never truly wanted me.
I became quieter for some,
louder for others,
anything but...real.
And the more I changed,
the more I lost myself...
Who I am...
Who I was...
So, one day,
I stopped adjusting myself
to match everyone else’s expectations.
Because for when you are the truest to yourself
you will fit in automatically where you belong.
And maybe that was the problem all along—
I was trying to belong everywhere
until I finally learned
to belong within myself first.
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 12:29 PM UTC
One website.
One password.
One shaking hand
hovering above the "Enter"
Before the screen even loads,
my mind begins its countdown,
and my heartbeat races ahead
of the result itself.
The timer slowly reducing
unlike my anxiousness
which keeps on increasing.
A brooding kind of stress...
The screen freezes—
and suddenly
the silence feels louder
than the world around me.
In that single moment,
dreams, fear, pressure, expectations—
all trapped
behind a loading circle.
And when the marks finally appear,
life doesn’t magically change…
No.
yet somehow,
everything feels different.
More different than normal.
More normal than different...
May 20
May 20, 2026 at 11:30 AM UTC