i’m learning to live you in smaller ways now
not all at once, not like before
just little by little, in days without you
there are mornings i don’t reach for you anymore
and then nights where you quietly return
somewhere between silence and exhaustion
you still exist
i am so different without you
not broken, just not the same
like there’s a version of me
left where we were last whole
and even when i try to find her in others
in new stories, new people
you are still the shape
she was first formed from
so i carry you with me
not to return back with pain
but to understand
how i became who i am
there are prayers i don’t say out loud anymore
but you’re in them
that you’re safe
that you’re happy
even if it’s no longer with me
i try
further the more lonely
the more i get used to it
the more deep and empty
yet i keep going
slowly
not to return
but to move forward
even if a part of me
will always feel like home was you
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 6:42 AM UTC
i’m learning to live you in smaller ways now
not all at once, not like before
just little by little, in days without you
there are mornings i don’t reach for you anymore
and then nights where you quietly return
somewhere between silence and exhaustion
you still exist
i am so different without you
not broken, just not the same
like there’s a version of me
left where we were last whole
and even when i try to find her in others
in new stories, new people
you are still the shape
she was first formed from
so i carry you with me
not to return back with pain
but to understand
how i became who i am
there are prayers i don’t say out loud anymore
but you’re in them
that you’re safe
that you’re happy
even if it’s no longer with me
i try
further the more lonely
the more i get used to it
the more deep and empty
yet i keep going
slowly
not to return
but to move forward
even if a part of me
will always feel like home was you
