someone's stepping on my chest
jumping and jumping and jumping
heavy and violent
like he's trying to send me right into the deep end
i've been feeling the heat on my skin
since i woke up this morning
it's not the weather,
it's not the sickness
the thought of happiness is so scary
i think my nerves are trying to burn me alive
i'll pick up the fork and the knife
because hopefully my hunger is causing
the nausea
that hasn't gone away for the last few years.
keep the portions small,
or i'll excuse myself with a smile to the bathroom.
five things i see-
but i close my eyes
then all i can hear is you.
set the door on fire,
let the room burn slowly
i'll smell the carbon
i'll feel the flames
i'll taste that bitter copper
the blood i can't seem to spit out
smoke is filling my lungs
there is no room for oxygen.
i won't even feel it,
i haven't breathed in a while.
i'd call my friends
but they'll tell me it's just alcohol poisioning.
sure, let's talk about basic biology
and i'll be thrilled to explain how a glimpse of serotonin
triggers all of this adrenaline to kick in.
Apr 7
Apr 7, 2026 at 6:41 PM UTC
someone's stepping on my chest
jumping and jumping and jumping
heavy and violent
like he's trying to send me right into the deep end
i've been feeling the heat on my skin
since i woke up this morning
it's not the weather,
it's not the sickness
the thought of happiness is so scary
i think my nerves are trying to burn me alive
i'll pick up the fork and the knife
because hopefully my hunger is causing
the nausea
that hasn't gone away for the last few years.
keep the portions small,
or i'll excuse myself with a smile to the bathroom.
five things i see-
but i close my eyes
then all i can hear is you.
set the door on fire,
let the room burn slowly
i'll smell the carbon
i'll feel the flames
i'll taste that bitter copper
the blood i can't seem to spit out
smoke is filling my lungs
there is no room for oxygen.
i won't even feel it,
i haven't breathed in a while.
i'd call my friends
but they'll tell me it's just alcohol poisioning.
sure, let's talk about basic biology
and i'll be thrilled to explain how a glimpse of serotonin
triggers all of this adrenaline to kick in.
