I just turned 20.
I've lived way too long to be this young.
And yet I'm too old to feel this young.
I feel 14 and 17 what do you mean I'm 20 I was just 16 yesterday.
But I feel 40. I feel old. So old.
I'm not the person I wanted to be at 20.
I'm not a person I wanted to be at all.
But I wouldn't want to be someone else.
They say slow down. Enjoy your teens.
Did I?
Don't tell me I'm 20. I didn't even want to reach here thought I'd be dead by now.
Don't tell me I'm 20. I'll just remember. I don't want to remember.
I want to something other than 20.
I want to be 14.
Writing my first stories even though they were **** wrecks.
I want to be 17.
Believing I had found home.
I want to be me.
Back when I thought happiness was simple.
They all stand at the door.
14. 17. 5.
Holding out their hand.
I should take it.
But I need to be 20.
So I smile and I whisper thank you.
Thank you for giving me 20.
Anyway. Thoughts.
Don't wish me happy birthday I'll just get depressed.
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 6:31 PM UTC
I just turned 20.
I've lived way too long to be this young.
And yet I'm too old to feel this young.
I feel 14 and 17 what do you mean I'm 20 I was just 16 yesterday.
But I feel 40. I feel old. So old.
I'm not the person I wanted to be at 20.
I'm not a person I wanted to be at all.
But I wouldn't want to be someone else.
They say slow down. Enjoy your teens.
Did I?
Don't tell me I'm 20. I didn't even want to reach here thought I'd be dead by now.
Don't tell me I'm 20. I'll just remember. I don't want to remember.
I want to something other than 20.
I want to be 14.
Writing my first stories even though they were **** wrecks.
I want to be 17.
Believing I had found home.
I want to be me.
Back when I thought happiness was simple.
They all stand at the door.
14. 17. 5.
Holding out their hand.
I should take it.
But I need to be 20.
So I smile and I whisper thank you.
Thank you for giving me 20.
Anyway. Thoughts.
Don't wish me happy birthday I'll just get depressed.
