I tried to be there
always available, always open
a message away, a call away
I tried to be your friend ..
to be the person I once wished I had
when I had no one.
that's the thing about hearts like mine
we make ourselves so available, give too freely
until our own outline blur
almost erase our own existence.
Coming from a place where I understand how
culture, society, and norms work
having lived myself, so deeply in my skin
with an honesty that sometimes stings.
So, I tried to protect you,
pouring the sincerest parts of my heart, into your hands
gave you the quiet warmth of my soul
a warmth, I now wish
I had kept for myself..
not because I wanted anything back
but because I wanted to see you glow
to see you rise, to see you achieve your truest life.
I tried to be there
your friend
your sister
your mother
your shelter.
I forgive you, not because it doesn't hurt
but because it's over
I refuse to put myself through this
ever again..
you didn't want me once the purpose was over
you become what you believe,
the untruth you whispered to yourself, to make sense of it all.
Remember how you used to say
how I'm so generous, my heart could endure anything
but what you didn't see how tightly I had locked myself away
not to shatter
but it did...
maybe you apologised
maybe you didn't
do you even apologise?
I am sorry I can't recall.
but I do know that it's over.
I welcomed you, but you slammed the **** door on me
told me how tortuous it all has been
how close you came to falling apart
as if my worth was the burden.
your words drained me
your energy dimmed my heart
your behaviour left me feeling used..
I am sorry it didn't make sense
that's the thing, these things rarely do
people show who they are, in their words and their behaviour
Nothing more, nothing less.
I sat there, I waited
and then, I chose to deserve better.
you didn't want to understand
didn't want to see.
just left, yet somehow
still expected me to show up again before actual departure
not for me, but for you.
Everything has always been about you..
my trust bruised, my heart broken, my pride shattered.
So, I go to therapy,
gathering the shattered pieces
cleaning the mess,
stitching my trust back together
thread by trembling thread.
I didn't leave, I simply watched your performance
I didn't believe your words, your actions were the only truth I needed
And I chose to deserve better
to choose myself,
fully,
finally
over you.
there's no friendship without trust and love
there are no sides without respect.
And just like that
you didn't only leave
you left my heart
& every corner
of my life.
Mar 3
Mar 3, 2026 at 10:58 AM UTC
I tried to be there
always available, always open
a message away, a call away
I tried to be your friend ..
to be the person I once wished I had
when I had no one.
that's the thing about hearts like mine
we make ourselves so available, give too freely
until our own outline blur
almost erase our own existence.
Coming from a place where I understand how
culture, society, and norms work
having lived myself, so deeply in my skin
with an honesty that sometimes stings.
So, I tried to protect you,
pouring the sincerest parts of my heart, into your hands
gave you the quiet warmth of my soul
a warmth, I now wish
I had kept for myself..
not because I wanted anything back
but because I wanted to see you glow
to see you rise, to see you achieve your truest life.
I tried to be there
your friend
your sister
your mother
your shelter.
I forgive you, not because it doesn't hurt
but because it's over
I refuse to put myself through this
ever again..
you didn't want me once the purpose was over
you become what you believe,
the untruth you whispered to yourself, to make sense of it all.
Remember how you used to say
how I'm so generous, my heart could endure anything
but what you didn't see how tightly I had locked myself away
not to shatter
but it did...
maybe you apologised
maybe you didn't
do you even apologise?
I am sorry I can't recall.
but I do know that it's over.
I welcomed you, but you slammed the **** door on me
told me how tortuous it all has been
how close you came to falling apart
as if my worth was the burden.
your words drained me
your energy dimmed my heart
your behaviour left me feeling used..
I am sorry it didn't make sense
that's the thing, these things rarely do
people show who they are, in their words and their behaviour
Nothing more, nothing less.
I sat there, I waited
and then, I chose to deserve better.
you didn't want to understand
didn't want to see.
just left, yet somehow
still expected me to show up again before actual departure
not for me, but for you.
Everything has always been about you..
my trust bruised, my heart broken, my pride shattered.
So, I go to therapy,
gathering the shattered pieces
cleaning the mess,
stitching my trust back together
thread by trembling thread.
I didn't leave, I simply watched your performance
I didn't believe your words, your actions were the only truth I needed
And I chose to deserve better
to choose myself,
fully,
finally
over you.
there's no friendship without trust and love
there are no sides without respect.
And just like that
you didn't only leave
you left my heart
& every corner
of my life.
