In retrospect, it has been nothing
but it is such a big, big thing to live.
I cast my brain upon
balconies seven heavens high.
When my train flattened a man, I wished it were me.
I feel like I've lived more lives than words they use to say
"You wouldn't know".
You wouldn't know what I have to do to get the tears to flow
never mind the fragments of breath
that try to sink when I sail them.
The scintillation of just one problem
is enough to short circuit me.
I shouldn't have to worry but I do.
Unknowingly creating loopholes
in each defiance I now call a luxury.
I don't want to live so why should I know how to?
Mar 1
Mar 1, 2026 at 6:18 PM UTC
In retrospect, it has been nothing
but it is such a big, big thing to live.
I cast my brain upon
balconies seven heavens high.
When my train flattened a man, I wished it were me.
I feel like I've lived more lives than words they use to say
"You wouldn't know".
You wouldn't know what I have to do to get the tears to flow
never mind the fragments of breath
that try to sink when I sail them.
The scintillation of just one problem
is enough to short circuit me.
I shouldn't have to worry but I do.
Unknowingly creating loopholes
in each defiance I now call a luxury.
I don't want to live so why should I know how to?
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