felt so much for so long
life taught me to numb it
since it’s better to feel nothing
than be stuck in perpetual dread
easier to numb it
than wish to be dead
easier to numb it all
than feel the pain instead
but eventually i have to heal
instead of hiding away in bed
trying to push it away
trying to be strong
while i string myself along
but when i’m alone
here comes down the crumbled walls of stone
that once were a safe home
for feelings never shown
Feb 21
Feb 21, 2026 at 10:27 PM UTC
felt so much for so long
life taught me to numb it
since it’s better to feel nothing
than be stuck in perpetual dread
easier to numb it
than wish to be dead
easier to numb it all
than feel the pain instead
but eventually i have to heal
instead of hiding away in bed
trying to push it away
trying to be strong
while i string myself along
but when i’m alone
here comes down the crumbled walls of stone
that once were a safe home
for feelings never shown
the walls put up to protect eventually become a home, but is it really a home when built off a weak foundation?