#wordsiwritebutneverspeak
i want to play the main role in your story
yet i am stuck cast as the understudy
i just wish you would’ve told me
instead of keeping the water muddy
though i wasn’t born yesterday
love’s always made me act a fool
but come as it may
i will get cooler with time
maybe then i will be your star
and score the part
as the winner in your heart
too busy being everyone’s peace
to ever find my own
hard to see the big picture
when there’s another script you’re thrown
owed for my dutiful role
but will never be paid
Feb 24
Feb 24, 2026 at 2:30 PM UTC
Not as sharp as I once was
Like a dull blade stored in a drawer
So my confidence is worn
I used to know what i wanted
Now I’m lost
And stuck being haunted
From faded potential
It’s consequential
No matter the cost
To move back to the path
And get everything on track
I just want myself back
Feb 24
Feb 24, 2026 at 12:40 PM UTC
my own mind
has been my pitfall
i may have eyes,
but i can’t see it all
have had to look outside myself
cause that’s the only thing that helps
to not amplify something small
the calls have came
from inside the house
but i’ve only chose
to answer now
Feb 24
Feb 24, 2026 at 12:06 PM UTC
felt so much for so long
life taught me to numb it
since it’s better to feel nothing
than be stuck in perpetual dread
easier to numb it
than wish to be dead
easier to numb it all
than feel the pain instead
but eventually i have to heal
instead of hiding away in bed
trying to push it away
trying to be strong
while i string myself along
but when i’m alone
here comes down the crumbled walls of stone
that once were a safe home
for feelings never shown
Feb 21
Feb 21, 2026 at 10:27 PM UTC
life used to be the barrier
i was deemed the burden carrier
of the bloodline
though that wasn’t a role I claimed as mine
it was the natural assumption
but just as much a disruption
never for my benefit
but I have to wear the mask,
masquerading as heaven sent
though my wings were clipped
an angel who could never soar
especially since no one would guess
these doe eyes have seen webs of lies
woven from those before
a testimony of time’s sores
the story into which I was born
Feb 18
Feb 18, 2026 at 1:20 PM UTC