I come back here every now and again.
Im surprised i even remember the email I used.
I poured my heart out on paper, I needed to tell the world how horrible I felt.
The last poem i posted here is nearly 12 years old. I was 14 and mad at the world. I hated myself and everyone around me.
I threatened suicide, but im not sure I ever meant it.
I guess i just wanted to show myself that my pain was real.
I think that is also why i keep coming back here. To check that i truly was in pain.
Even now, so many years later I haven't completely let it go, because if I do, how will I know it was true?
What if I forget how life feels when you're 14 and addicted to self deprication?
What if I forget and accidentally go back and do it all over again?
Jan 28
Jan 28, 2026 at 3:23 PM UTC
I come back here every now and again.
Im surprised i even remember the email I used.
I poured my heart out on paper, I needed to tell the world how horrible I felt.
The last poem i posted here is nearly 12 years old. I was 14 and mad at the world. I hated myself and everyone around me.
I threatened suicide, but im not sure I ever meant it.
I guess i just wanted to show myself that my pain was real.
I think that is also why i keep coming back here. To check that i truly was in pain.
Even now, so many years later I haven't completely let it go, because if I do, how will I know it was true?
What if I forget how life feels when you're 14 and addicted to self deprication?
What if I forget and accidentally go back and do it all over again?
