she was always smiling or talking about" her boyfriends"
or sometimes she called them" her brothers "
they were really just kpop idols
no one saw the pain she experienced
no one saw the comfort she gave herself
no one saw how she ran to throw up
no one saw her cry
no one not the way i did
she screamed locked me out of the toilet
but i couldn't leave her
i screamed too
"open up please" I cried out to her
for her
i couldn't just leave her
not like that
she told me she cried and screamed all her pain into my arms
we left the toilet with my arm wet
but her eyes dry
she was always so smiley
i never even dreamed of that amount of pain
let alone to dream she felt that
i racked my brain for ways to make her smile
not the one she put on for us
a real one
one from her heart
she thought nobody cared
to be brutally honest
i barely did
if i did i would have seen it sooner
i should have noticed how she always rushed to the toilet
the moment she came to school
not to apply makeup like the rest of us
but to fix her ****** expression
i should have seen her smile wash away
the moment she had to go home
unlike the rest of us
who couldn't wait
sometimes just sometimes i see her smile
for real i mean
only sometimes
when she fights for" her brothers" "husbands "and "boyfriends "
they are her happiness but that's alright
Jan 17
Jan 17, 2026 at 8:07 AM UTC
she was always smiling or talking about" her boyfriends"
or sometimes she called them" her brothers "
they were really just kpop idols
no one saw the pain she experienced
no one saw the comfort she gave herself
no one saw how she ran to throw up
no one saw her cry
no one not the way i did
she screamed locked me out of the toilet
but i couldn't leave her
i screamed too
"open up please" I cried out to her
for her
i couldn't just leave her
not like that
she told me she cried and screamed all her pain into my arms
we left the toilet with my arm wet
but her eyes dry
she was always so smiley
i never even dreamed of that amount of pain
let alone to dream she felt that
i racked my brain for ways to make her smile
not the one she put on for us
a real one
one from her heart
she thought nobody cared
to be brutally honest
i barely did
if i did i would have seen it sooner
i should have noticed how she always rushed to the toilet
the moment she came to school
not to apply makeup like the rest of us
but to fix her ****** expression
i should have seen her smile wash away
the moment she had to go home
unlike the rest of us
who couldn't wait
sometimes just sometimes i see her smile
for real i mean
only sometimes
when she fights for" her brothers" "husbands "and "boyfriends "
they are her happiness but that's alright
