with you on concrete & paint
no, i won't throw that away this time
my heart open & full of the sun's rays
running away & into this beautiful Fall
but it's near midnight now
& i never thought it'd be so simple
dance with me here
& plant your seed into my cobblestone *****
where & here
there were warmth
& i transfer & give it to you
awkwardly & sincerely but not desperately
not this time
this time puppy
i tell you it's cold here
& this time i focus on the future
with its snow
& with my socks wet
& with me tossing
& with me turning
& slapping my ear
inferno
so very angry that this bloodsucker is here
hiding my demons
& hauling them here & there
into church
& then into the bathroom
i sing
& i *****
& into there i collapse
into your heart & into your scar
some hazy story about who he was
or my intention
Jupiter holds a moon & expels me
& Saturn holds my ring & inhales me
here in this thresher
the old bayonet
& the knee crunching
the rib scratched
& the ambrosia
softly & slowly
pooling up & falling
from wound & from Christ's
sharing His sentiment
& his flame
a kiss from the hem
& i'm sewn together
my glass eye falling & stuck
staring at our messiah as i lift & am pulled
i am a womb with a love so true
truth of the matter i'd give it to you
you just have to slow down
& quit acting that way
burning our barn in this ***** tonk flame
removing this eye
tossing it aside
unsure of the fit
or the meaning
unfit to fix my illness
my messiah looks up towards me
as i slink into this alley
rubbing my nose
& feeling my knuckles' wound
fill with someone else's blood
again
i tell you
it's clear & it's now
& i tell you that i'm still & i'm
warm with intent
yet repetition fails me
& that isn't magic
that isn't supernatural
nearing clairvoyance
& out of my mind
i move into country
& forget the city's pennies
& both of their worth
is it more than me
is it easier than me
is it listening & deserving
these fall & slide off as easy as my skirt
& i am asked to share
& i look
into the messiah's eyes with
mine own good and behaved
an angel broken
& me slowing down
on the rope
on the rope
good
and for nothing
i'm still & i'm tied
finally present & finally still
(satellite, encompass me & sever this confusion
it was north my heart faced
& south which they left behind
now it is you & I
me with tears on my feet & mud in my eyes
simpler dishes I cook & break
shorter hairs i trim & fret over
if i stare into this book & if my eyes fall apart
if i drool into this alley & soak in the loss,
i'll be free
i'll be still)
***
Act II.
i'll find my injury
Act III.
Finally.
Act IV.
& sweetly, quietly,
painlessly
without regret,
mistake or confusion.
Act V.
I'll close my eyes & disappear
Nov 23, 2025
Nov 23, 2025 at 12:47 PM UTC
with you on concrete & paint
no, i won't throw that away this time
my heart open & full of the sun's rays
running away & into this beautiful Fall
but it's near midnight now
& i never thought it'd be so simple
dance with me here
& plant your seed into my cobblestone *****
where & here
there were warmth
& i transfer & give it to you
awkwardly & sincerely but not desperately
not this time
this time puppy
i tell you it's cold here
& this time i focus on the future
with its snow
& with my socks wet
& with me tossing
& with me turning
& slapping my ear
inferno
so very angry that this bloodsucker is here
hiding my demons
& hauling them here & there
into church
& then into the bathroom
i sing
& i *****
& into there i collapse
into your heart & into your scar
some hazy story about who he was
or my intention
Jupiter holds a moon & expels me
& Saturn holds my ring & inhales me
here in this thresher
the old bayonet
& the knee crunching
the rib scratched
& the ambrosia
softly & slowly
pooling up & falling
from wound & from Christ's
sharing His sentiment
& his flame
a kiss from the hem
& i'm sewn together
my glass eye falling & stuck
staring at our messiah as i lift & am pulled
i am a womb with a love so true
truth of the matter i'd give it to you
you just have to slow down
& quit acting that way
burning our barn in this ***** tonk flame
removing this eye
tossing it aside
unsure of the fit
or the meaning
unfit to fix my illness
my messiah looks up towards me
as i slink into this alley
rubbing my nose
& feeling my knuckles' wound
fill with someone else's blood
again
i tell you
it's clear & it's now
& i tell you that i'm still & i'm
warm with intent
yet repetition fails me
& that isn't magic
that isn't supernatural
nearing clairvoyance
& out of my mind
i move into country
& forget the city's pennies
& both of their worth
is it more than me
is it easier than me
is it listening & deserving
these fall & slide off as easy as my skirt
& i am asked to share
& i look
into the messiah's eyes with
mine own good and behaved
an angel broken
& me slowing down
on the rope
on the rope
good
and for nothing
i'm still & i'm tied
finally present & finally still
(satellite, encompass me & sever this confusion
it was north my heart faced
& south which they left behind
now it is you & I
me with tears on my feet & mud in my eyes
simpler dishes I cook & break
shorter hairs i trim & fret over
if i stare into this book & if my eyes fall apart
if i drool into this alley & soak in the loss,
i'll be free
i'll be still)
***
Act II.
i'll find my injury
Act III.
Finally.
Act IV.
& sweetly, quietly,
painlessly
without regret,
mistake or confusion.
Act V.
I'll close my eyes & disappear
Tragedy
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