I’m not suicidal,
I’m really not,
but the thoughts never stop,
and the words I write have begun to strangle my throat,
and I have begun to choke.
Im not suicidal,
but if you had a knife to my throat,
I would lean into it as if it were the most fantastical thing I had ever invoked
I’m not suicidal,
but I am the problem,
and I’m afraid I’ve hit rock bottom
and I know that it will get better,
but It has been five years,
and I am afraid that I am run dry of tears,
so, I’ve decided it’s time to give into my fears,
to be near to death, a friend that has become oh so, dear
so goodnight my loved ones,
sleep well my dearest chums,
as I taste the blood from my gums,
and feel the pressure pressing on my lungs,
and I am no liar,
so I will be frank,
if you wake up from a nightmare, next to the water your drank,
come down to the ocean’s bank,
and remember that just as the stars fall without any care for the planets,
I wish that you are not appalled,
I wish that you simply understand it.
Nov 12, 2025
Nov 12, 2025 at 2:56 AM UTC
I’m not suicidal,
I’m really not,
but the thoughts never stop,
and the words I write have begun to strangle my throat,
and I have begun to choke.
Im not suicidal,
but if you had a knife to my throat,
I would lean into it as if it were the most fantastical thing I had ever invoked
I’m not suicidal,
but I am the problem,
and I’m afraid I’ve hit rock bottom
and I know that it will get better,
but It has been five years,
and I am afraid that I am run dry of tears,
so, I’ve decided it’s time to give into my fears,
to be near to death, a friend that has become oh so, dear
so goodnight my loved ones,
sleep well my dearest chums,
as I taste the blood from my gums,
and feel the pressure pressing on my lungs,
and I am no liar,
so I will be frank,
if you wake up from a nightmare, next to the water your drank,
come down to the ocean’s bank,
and remember that just as the stars fall without any care for the planets,
I wish that you are not appalled,
I wish that you simply understand it.