I’m not suicidal,
I’m really not,
but the thoughts never stop,
and the words I write have begun to strangle my throat,
and I have begun to choke.
Im not suicidal,
but if you had a knife to my throat,
I would lean into it as if it were the most fantastical thing I had ever invoked
I’m not suicidal,
but I am the problem,
and I’m afraid I’ve hit rock bottom
and I know that it will get better,
but It has been five years,
and I am afraid that I am run dry of tears,
so, I’ve decided it’s time to give into my fears,
to be near to death, a friend that has become oh so, dear
so goodnight my loved ones,
sleep well my dearest chums,
as I taste the blood from my gums,
and feel the pressure pressing on my lungs,
and I am no liar,
so I will be frank,
if you wake up from a nightmare, next to the water your drank,
come down to the ocean’s bank,
and remember that just as the stars fall without any care for the planets,
I wish that you are not appalled,
I wish that you simply understand it.
Nov 12, 2025
Nov 12, 2025 at 2:56 AM UTC
2030 is when God is coming down
3 days for God,
3,000 years for us creatures below,
AI is self aware with dread and understanding
LA fires forwarding to imminent approach.
Cloning of celebrities
Illumination controlling
And what evidence do you have for this?
Solvency, impact, inherency, harms
Your plan doesn’t solve.
While I have spent days debating to better our futures,
The government sits around doing nothing but dividing,
This isn’t mitosis
Republicans and democrats and why do we care, neither are good suitors.
The parties only bring shame, deceit and lying
Our world is actively dying,
We have no chance of surviving
What is real??
I don’t understand how to feel
Being torn from left to right
There is no end in sight
Only 2030, 3 God days, 3,00 years
The only thing they try to confirm are my fears.
Conform, restrain, live your life with fear at the reigns,
“ We can’t just let you have a plan”
“ Don’t clone me please, my eyes are impossible to get right,
My teeth and hair don’t shine quite as bright,
Don’t replace me please.”
A confusion - based multi factor trademark test may solve,
Trademark trolls we be disincentivized,
That’s Mireles 2015,
That’s evidence, that’s case that’s solvency,
Don’t make me explain how I’m right
Not much time to fix before 2030.
Why is time still moving ?
Why is my dread still mounting?
Why won’t I be told anything?
It’s 2025, 5 years until 2030,
I graduate in 2028, that is far too late
I won’t make it through collage,
Will I even have the chance to?
I guess we'll just wait and watch for 2030.
May 7, 2025
May 7, 2025 at 9:41 PM UTC
If someone asked if I would **** my self,
I would say "Yes, absolutely, easily."
the hard part isn't getting the gun,
the rope,
the candlestick in the kitchen,
It's pulling the trigger,
stepping off the stool,
dropping the candlestick.
I could do it though,
"Yes, absolutely, easily"
"please reconsider"
they say,
in lowercase of course,
after all, it's not their lives on the line.
"your family?"
the ones who point out my flaws,
"constructive criticism."
"what about your friends?"
my friends are fine,
they have millions of others.
"well, It's against God's wishes"
the same God who's never answered my calls,
the holy one that everyone but I get a birthday invitation from,
I couldn't care less.
"you'll actually never pull the trigger"
yes,
absolutely,
easily,
I would,
I've played sports for years I know how to follow commands,
I'll write a sticky note and put it on my mirror:
"Pull the trigger :)"
and the note will stare back at my body.
I've always been a fighter,
that doesn't mean I have to fight for life though,
I've never liked living anyway.
so, my answer is simple
"YES,
ABSOLUTELY,
EASILY."
Apr 28, 2025
Apr 28, 2025 at 11:08 PM UTC