Where were you
when I needed you the most?
When I cried myself to sleep
and woke up pretending fine.
Where were you
when I stood up for you
without you asking?
Where were you
when the loud Girl
faded into
“I don’t leave the house anymore”?
You didn’t care.
Not enough.
I gave you all the signs
all the signs
ALL THE SIGNS.
You ignored them.
Every one.
I lied.
I’m not tired of myself,
or of people.
I’m tired of the feeling
that the ones I thought
would come
never came.
You never came.
I was defeated.
Nowhere to run.
Chasing my shadow all night long.
Chasing the version of you
that promised to be there.
It’s fine.
I don’t blame you.
We all have our ways of drowning.
But never was I not there.
Wish I could say
the same about you.
Nov 4, 2025
Nov 4, 2025 at 3:21 PM UTC
Where were you
when I needed you the most?
When I cried myself to sleep
and woke up pretending fine.
Where were you
when I stood up for you
without you asking?
Where were you
when the loud Girl
faded into
“I don’t leave the house anymore”?
You didn’t care.
Not enough.
I gave you all the signs
all the signs
ALL THE SIGNS.
You ignored them.
Every one.
I lied.
I’m not tired of myself,
or of people.
I’m tired of the feeling
that the ones I thought
would come
never came.
You never came.
I was defeated.
Nowhere to run.
Chasing my shadow all night long.
Chasing the version of you
that promised to be there.
It’s fine.
I don’t blame you.
We all have our ways of drowning.
But never was I not there.
Wish I could say
the same about you.
Wrote this when i felt completely unseen by someone i cared about. It's that kind of pain where you keep showing up for people who never do the same. Writing it was my way of letting go not out of anger, but from finally accepting that some people just won't come, no matter how much you need them.