#lonelyness
Link to A Lighthouse in Spain - free:
https://suno.com/s/1ABWwyaKNJXyVKMm
Lyrics
Briny ocean breeze,
Fishing boats shepherded home,
By your guiding light.
Lonely sentinel,
Standing against raging storms,
Without recompense.
Piercing darkest nights,
Never resting or relieved,
Faithful to your task.
Friend to sailors all,
In calm seas and hurricanes,
A beacon of life.
Are you lonely now,
Lighthouse keepers seldom now,
Keep you company.
Beauty surrounds you,
All your watchful eye surveys,
Awesome to behold.
And yet I wonder,
Do you long to sail the seas,
As your charges do?
Is duty enough,
In your lonely nightly watch,
To bring you some joy?
Do you crave release,
From centuries of service,
Awaiting relief?
Do you feel like me,
With my legs chained to the earth,
Longing to fly free?
May 21
May 21, 2026 at 11:41 AM UTC
Where were you
when I needed you the most?
When I cried myself to sleep
and woke up pretending fine.
Where were you
when I stood up for you
without you asking?
Where were you
when the loud Girl
faded into
“I don’t leave the house anymore”?
You didn’t care.
Not enough.
I gave you all the signs
all the signs
ALL THE SIGNS.
You ignored them.
Every one.
I lied.
I’m not tired of myself,
or of people.
I’m tired of the feeling
that the ones I thought
would come
never came.
You never came.
I was defeated.
Nowhere to run.
Chasing my shadow all night long.
Chasing the version of you
that promised to be there.
It’s fine.
I don’t blame you.
We all have our ways of drowning.
But never was I not there.
Wish I could say
the same about you.
Nov 4, 2025
Nov 4, 2025 at 3:21 PM UTC
"Please... Help me escape this reality and take me away;
So far away, send me to the world of fantasy. "
"Give me a door to the world of illusion, please..."
"Send me there, in hopes that I find something that could fill that dissatisfied void inside of me,"
I'm such a coward. Who knew I had such feeble feelings?
Things like this aren't so necessary, right;?
Daydreaming is all I had;
And there's something I wanted to reach so bad.
I clutch onto the bars that keep me isolated. I see that ray of light;
it was merely inches away, yet it feels like miles apart from me.
Should I go and grasp for it?
Escape this prison of my mind and live in a life full of satisfaction?
Or will this thinking even get me far?
What if I failed?
Who will come to my rescue?
Who will save me from drowning in an ocean with no water as air stopped flowing down my lungs?
Can this heaviness be lifted?
This void within my chest?
If I was set free, who will accompany me in a vast world like this?
With this coop of thought that I have;
I'm no better than that person who was in a room with no doors, just four corners.
Jan 27, 2021
Jan 27, 2021 at 11:22 PM UTC
Sometimes
I only need
Someone saying
I'm here for you
No questions
No judgment
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 7:44 AM UTC
made of clouds
evanescent
vagabond into the sky
waiting for you to look up
before the wind
dissolves me
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 2:58 AM UTC
it is a meaningless curiosity,
to wonder where you went.
the anonymity of the future
seems to disembody what came
and went.
and i sat, and wept,
and inhaled what your cigarette bled.
there, lonesome, where
two sparks had once met.
a fire so bright that
dripped kerosene where it stepped,
was put out by time,
and i observed as it crept.
i did spend restless nights,
and i prepare. more will come.
but trust me my dear,
one day you’ll know where i'm truly from.
just as you told me we were,
that there’d be no more “us”
as the sun rose in morn’
and then set off towards dusk.
the light will dismiss,
like the flicker from a chalice,
my skin will thicken
like mountains on an atlas.
and i will rise, and i will tremble,
as my words craft me a temple,
colossal in height, and treacherous in-depth,
where my scripture will live, and in solitude kept.
but you’ll hear, and you’ll listen, and you’ll reflect on my image
as i watch myself glisten, from you and beyond.
on that day, understand my duty as an artist,
and why my memory of you will last.
as the suffering turned to art for my future
will be composed of our distant past.
-melancholicreator
Jun 5, 2020
Jun 5, 2020 at 12:23 PM UTC
Loneliness is the lead ball in the pit of your stomach.
You let it control you like the gods control the weather, you let it take charge of your life like your father did when he laid a hand on you.
You let the loneliness creep in under your pillow, so it can whisper darkness into your dreams.
Soon you will look at your life and wonder when you threw it away and decided that your own company was the only thing you were good enough for.
One winter you will ask yourself why you never tried harder and if that is the reason you're celebrating christmas alone.
When you turn 80 you will think about all the times you needed company and all the times your insecurities took the chance of ever getting it away.
Aug 2, 2019
Aug 2, 2019 at 1:51 PM UTC
Loneliness hits in waves
Crashing upon the heart like a bullet when you least expect it
The impact soon spreads to the brain
Riddled with self-doubt, you think if you are worth it
“What are you doing wrong?”
You could be sitting alone at night
You could be talking with a friend
But the gun always seems to fire, and the impact always seems to occur
Everlasting hurt your soul is subject to bear
Sometimes further isolation can happen
And sometimes you can surround yourself with friends
But regardless of the balm applied to this perpetual wound the pain can be felt
Loneliness hits in waves
Apr 24, 2019
Apr 24, 2019 at 10:57 AM UTC
I am a storm, that rumbles through the night.
I am the darkness, that you chase away with light.
I am the night sky, full of stars, that you never look at.
I am alone; there is not another like me.
I am always here, but you take me for granted.
I am the moon, shunned by even the sun.
I am hungry, but there is nothing to feed me.
I cry for help, but no one can hear me; all they hear is the wind.
The sun is like a mask, that I put on to make you like me.
The moon is like my heart, beautiful and dark, but you seem to hate my heart.
I am the sky, full of swooping swallows, that you always ignore.
I am the sky; both clear and stormy.
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 1:16 PM UTC
I can't speak loud
Sun that hide behind the clouds
Sight keeps going down
In emptyness, I've drown.
Are we really friends??
Attention you can't lend
Metal that can be bent
Bond made by lie, with rust it ends.
Fibers in my chest are weak
Fragile vase that leaks
Mask that is tough and fierce
You got me mentally and emotionally pierced.
I'm in happiness, but also in pain
Inside my vase, a world with an unending rain
When flood over flows, through my eyes it drains,
Behind a mask, it can be hidden and leaves no stain.
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 7:10 PM UTC
I feel lonely
Because you are too busy
I guess I'm not lucky
To have you back beside me.
I lost my emotions
I'm in no position
I know the cautions
I can't believe I'm in this situation...
I'm missing something...
But I have that something...
But the way I'm feeling,
It feels like I have nothing.
You belong to me and so do I to you,
But it feels like I belong to no one knows who...
I guess you are too occupied to feel it too,
And I'm just here waiting for you.
This is strange...
I expect nothing serious with this long range...
I don't even love you at all!
And yet my chest felt like I had a harsh fall.
May 28, 2018
May 28, 2018 at 1:05 PM UTC
Do you ever blame yourself for everything?
Have you ever just wanted to curl up and be left alone?
This is me every day, every week, every month, every year...
You cut, and pop pills, and choke yourself out, but what good does it do?
You can't change who you are or what happens.
"You are you
that's truer than true.
there's no one alive,
that's youer than you."
(-Dr. Seuss)
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018 at 10:41 PM UTC
Dark and shallow
Empty and cold
Now she's always alone
Because sorrow is all she knows.
Her spirit was broken
And her heart was stolen
The love she asks was never given
All because of a promise that was forgotten.
Her heart was shouting
Her soul is crying
Her lips are lying
But her tears are indicating.
But she finally gave up
She have nothing to look up
Like being stuck in the mud
The only choice is to stop.
Her chest is heavy
She wants to escape reality
For she is no longer happy
Pain she don't want to further carry.
Death is the only escape
From the mistake she create
She chose her own fate
Jump away from hate.
Silent and calm
Chills in her palm
She hears a sweat hum
Her path in after life began.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 8:47 AM UTC
Look at me now
I feel so down
I lost my crown
I just wish I'm gone.
All because off a promise
That has been spoken
But forgotten and broken
Now my smile have been taken.
Mind thinks of lies
Lips does fake smiles
But behind your backs I try,
To wipe the tears when I cry.
Try to look deeper,
Deep inside is warmer
And there tears are greater
Everyday I'm getting lonelier.
Oh poor me,
Weak and lonely.
Can you blame me?
If sadness is all I see....
Here I am speaking to you,
Right after you left me out of the blue.
You left me without a clue,
Only here missing you.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 8:44 AM UTC
Can be good, can be bad
But oftenly sad.
A past we once had,
A time I can't bring back.
Your voice keep ringing in my head,
When will this ever end?
Is this what I get?
For loving you till the end...
I trusted you,
I thaught you were true...
Why didn't I saw through,
Your love that is too few.
Oh how silly
For you I still worry
Burden I no longer carry
But my chest is still heavy.
Everything I see
Reminds me of what we used to be
Still hoping for you to be with me
Even knowing it could never be.
I've been so depressed
This must be the greatest
Putting my sanity into test
I hope it will be less.
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 8:34 AM UTC
Death looms my mind
Every day i live lifes deathly grip thightens around my throat of happiness
Traped in this
asymmetrical
Useless
Addicted and weak
Meat prison
Only love will set me free
But sadly it will never come
I am condemned in my meat prison.
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 4:47 PM UTC
I can write letters
for the dead
I can articulate paragraphs
that goes through
lofty clouds,
or deep,
hard bedrock
they don't write back
though
they can't
they won't
so I'm stuck here
writing letters for the dead
because admit it
or not;
someday,
we'll
all
want
mail
too
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 10:04 AM UTC
when i say i'm alone, i mean i'm alone. not in the way you can be alone when no one is around you, but the kind of alone you are when the room is filled with people while not one of them knows how you feel or what's going on in your life. i am the kind of alone when you drive home from a long day of school and you know that no one is gonna ask how your day was. the kind of alone you feel on a birthday, when everyone seems so happy but you just can't feel the whole birthday spirit.
i am not the kind of alone you are when there is no presence of another person, i feel the most alone around people. i am alone in the way i feel, alone in the way i understand life, alone in school, alone at home, i am always alone. and there is no one who can make me feel any less alone, no matter how hard you try. so i crawl to the background, i turn to music, turn to my writing and try to become okay with the constant lonelyness and i realise it's not such a shame to alone.
but sometimes it just feels
so alone.
Aug 26, 2017
Aug 26, 2017 at 6:00 AM UTC
Drag me by my bloodied ankles,
beat my body with such vigor.
Remember my face before you twist it,
look into my eyes as you pull the trigger.
To me you were the closest of friends,
you helped me up when I was low.
But here I am at your mercy,
and instead of love I recieve hard blows.
Little do you know however,
that the blood you draw will heal.
My skin will seal itself again,
and my life you will never steal.
(i.r)
Sep 12, 2016
Sep 12, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
Alone I lie awake,
sitting in an empty room.
Another long night.
Mar 5, 2015
Mar 5, 2015 at 6:53 PM UTC
Now days spent without cause,
Without things desired by my own heart,
Her presence always attached to mine soul,
Though her touch far from reaching.
Though now she being the integral part of mine mind,
Does she thus ever see mine heart or lacking of hers?
Mine lips sealed without words to utter the heart clear,
Or are this feelings so big enough to give out such fear?
Love or maybe the desire hers growing without deeds,
Why have I become a man whom hides his face?
Is this concealed love worth it?
Or will she ever see mine heart safeguarded from hurts?
Or should I even let her see through me?
Maybe I should give her a try and let it be.
Aug 25, 2015
Aug 25, 2015 at 2:27 PM UTC
I never ever am alone.
They are always there.
Never leaving me alone.
Always talking to me.
I never mind them.
They are my friends.
The only friends I have.
And they will never leave me alone.
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 7:16 AM UTC
Hopeless,
entangled and lonely
Soiled in thought.
Green shrubbery in
knots of friendship
and senseless touch.
Peonies by the dozen,
resting on the floor,
with drawn malice
and a simpleton heart.
In puddles of love
and a rainfall of glass
they evaporate in pointless,
panicked gasps.
Hopelessly.
Entangled and lonely.
Twirling in the frost
of stormed air,
and withered wrecks,
and sugar glass.
Peonies by the dozen
dying on the floor-
Jun 21, 2015
Jun 21, 2015 at 8:26 PM UTC
i whisper into the void
and wonder if you hear me
you stare into the void
and wonder what's that sound
this is our relationship
these are all our relationships
i hope some day someone
would hear you clear
thank you for readin'
random internet user
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 4:29 PM UTC