even in the midst of chaos
the beating of mine own heart
is the loudest noise of them all
amongst the frenzy
the pounding in my chest
still makes me feel alone
a quiet breath
a shaky grin
i hide behind it all
to put others at ease
and to silence my own thoughts
i beat against the silence
the way my heart beats against me
craving, desiring, feasting
will it ever end or
will i finally put myself at ease
i swear that im okay
i keep my own mind at bay
and yet it does nothing
to cure the restless beat of mine heart
it is frantic
it is controlling
it is god
and i am a mere mortal
Oct 10, 2025
Oct 10, 2025 at 1:39 AM UTC
even in the midst of chaos
the beating of mine own heart
is the loudest noise of them all
amongst the frenzy
the pounding in my chest
still makes me feel alone
a quiet breath
a shaky grin
i hide behind it all
to put others at ease
and to silence my own thoughts
i beat against the silence
the way my heart beats against me
craving, desiring, feasting
will it ever end or
will i finally put myself at ease
i swear that im okay
i keep my own mind at bay
and yet it does nothing
to cure the restless beat of mine heart
it is frantic
it is controlling
it is god
and i am a mere mortal
this is from august 15 ,,, being very vulnerable online again