I'm in a stagnant place
Stuck on autopilot
Don't even recognize my face
Always reserved, always quiet
I feel very alone
Even with family & friends
I am always prone
To feel like I'm at my end
Every day is not new
No motivation, just doubt
An endless cycle of devalue
All I ever do is space out
I get drunk and high
To try & escape this reality
But all I do is ask why
Not even drugs are enough for me
I wonder when this will leave
And when I'll feel normal
I don't think I'll ever believe
That I'll feel anything but mournful
I only wish to sleep all day
And stay hidden in my bed
That is the only way
To cope with these thoughts in my head
Nov 12, 2013
Nov 12, 2013 at 7:29 AM UTC
I'm in a stagnant place
Stuck on autopilot
Don't even recognize my face
Always reserved, always quiet
I feel very alone
Even with family & friends
I am always prone
To feel like I'm at my end
Every day is not new
No motivation, just doubt
An endless cycle of devalue
All I ever do is space out
I get drunk and high
To try & escape this reality
But all I do is ask why
Not even drugs are enough for me
I wonder when this will leave
And when I'll feel normal
I don't think I'll ever believe
That I'll feel anything but mournful
I only wish to sleep all day
And stay hidden in my bed
That is the only way
To cope with these thoughts in my head
© Peyton 2013
