fragile yet bulletproof
a doll, china-glazed
wrapped in barbed wire
steel claws, my iron gaze
through the blackness
the magnetic ground
starry-eyed; it's tempting
trying to pull me down
with lead weights tied
to my dragging heels
god I wish I were strong
and didn't have to feel
mind wired on chemicals
and caffeinated veins
blood clots, racing heart
I think I'm sick again
counting the hours in
bites of empty air
ghosts crawling to my ears
nestling in brittle hair
I'll have to stop soon
I'm hunger-drunk, dying
high on pain and
so done with trying
baffled by so-called normal
those machines that refuel
on fat, sugar, calories
it's so ******* cruel
that I was born to howl
at a midnight moon
to live in shadows, knowing
my life is ending soon.
© Tara India.
Oct 8, 2013
Oct 8, 2013 at 12:00 PM UTC
fragile yet bulletproof
a doll, china-glazed
wrapped in barbed wire
steel claws, my iron gaze
through the blackness
the magnetic ground
starry-eyed; it's tempting
trying to pull me down
with lead weights tied
to my dragging heels
god I wish I were strong
and didn't have to feel
mind wired on chemicals
and caffeinated veins
blood clots, racing heart
I think I'm sick again
counting the hours in
bites of empty air
ghosts crawling to my ears
nestling in brittle hair
I'll have to stop soon
I'm hunger-drunk, dying
high on pain and
so done with trying
baffled by so-called normal
those machines that refuel
on fat, sugar, calories
it's so ******* cruel
that I was born to howl
at a midnight moon
to live in shadows, knowing
my life is ending soon.
© Tara India.
I haven't eaten in 42 hours.
