Scared
I had a moment
A moment of real happiness
A silly loving happy moment
It felt like learning to laugh again but also strange
It really was a good moment
But I'm scared
Scared to fail
Scared to ruin this
Scared of never being enough
I feel like it's unfair to you
Like I'm not worthy of love
What if I don't find my will to live
What if I keep seeing you but I still break
I feel like you are worth more than my misery.
It's ironic how we're struggling with the opposite things
Me scared to live and you scared of dying
I really try to let you in but I could never tell you everything. Even tho I think you might understand. I'm so scared of that pitty look in your eyes.
It's hard to explain but I feel guilty dating you. Don't get me wrong I do like you but it feels like Im doing something wrong
Dec 18, 2023
Dec 18, 2023 at 3:35 PM UTC
Scared
I had a moment
A moment of real happiness
A silly loving happy moment
It felt like learning to laugh again but also strange
It really was a good moment
But I'm scared
Scared to fail
Scared to ruin this
Scared of never being enough
I feel like it's unfair to you
Like I'm not worthy of love
What if I don't find my will to live
What if I keep seeing you but I still break
I feel like you are worth more than my misery.
It's ironic how we're struggling with the opposite things
Me scared to live and you scared of dying
I really try to let you in but I could never tell you everything. Even tho I think you might understand. I'm so scared of that pitty look in your eyes.
It's hard to explain but I feel guilty dating you. Don't get me wrong I do like you but it feels like Im doing something wrong