I was not prepared
Seeing you for the first time in years felt like the air was punched right out of me
I’m not sure if I pretended well enough
I’m not sure I care
If this was years ago, I would’ve talked to you
I would’ve texted you after
Not caring where you were at in life
Where I’m at…
I’ve always been selfish with my feelings
I’m trying not to be
I kept my space
Until I heard my name being called to come join everyone
I couldn’t stop looking up at the stars
Or lack there of
I couldn’t stop telling myself that this is what I deserve
This feeling of regret
And instead of making it known
Trying to fix it
Or get what I could back
I just keep reminding myself that I need to leave us there
in the past
and continue moving forward
I will not disrupt lives for my own selfish feelings
I only wonder how long you’ll be visiting me in my dreams
Like my own form of torture.
Aug 7, 2023
Aug 7, 2023 at 10:52 AM UTC
I was not prepared
Seeing you for the first time in years felt like the air was punched right out of me
I’m not sure if I pretended well enough
I’m not sure I care
If this was years ago, I would’ve talked to you
I would’ve texted you after
Not caring where you were at in life
Where I’m at…
I’ve always been selfish with my feelings
I’m trying not to be
I kept my space
Until I heard my name being called to come join everyone
I couldn’t stop looking up at the stars
Or lack there of
I couldn’t stop telling myself that this is what I deserve
This feeling of regret
And instead of making it known
Trying to fix it
Or get what I could back
I just keep reminding myself that I need to leave us there
in the past
and continue moving forward
I will not disrupt lives for my own selfish feelings
I only wonder how long you’ll be visiting me in my dreams
Like my own form of torture.