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A new found enjoyment, not heaven sent Still drawn to it like a moth to a flame Don't share in my regret, promise to stay distant I couldn't bare to see you in this much pain Find me ambivalent to some extent To take another step if it's in vain Notice I'm hesitant to place a bet L's stack shame on top of shame atop my name Life itself's a debt, lest we forget The plot and grave are one in the same A dark passenger resident denise me residence How did I lose access to my own brain To myself I'm a threat, morality bent Just so I'm not always going against the grain Don't care 'bout bein' relevant, never permanent But pain finds a way to remain No clue what it meant is a poor argument Would rather not waste time trying to explain One day you might get it, wouldn't count on it Strange to be your very own ball and chain Go 'head and attempt it, see no safety net You WILL become one with the terrain Flesh and bone, neck and neck racing to pavement Then witness the insane riddled membrane Always defiant, against my better judgement Probably should have stayed in my own lane No deterrent to embracing my inner deviant A full embrace of the profane Won't seek atonement, least not at the moment I only wish the only option was to remain There's a death certificate, a signed suicide document The growing black mark on my heart is more than a stain So here I sit, trying to make sense of it Unknown, alone and forgotten out in the rain Selfimprisonment, a life sentence recipient The issues with my DNA, infecting every strain ©2023
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May 13, 2023
May 13, 2023 at 9:22 PM UTC
~•§•~ Hesitant ~•§•~
A new found enjoyment, not heaven sent Still drawn to it like a moth to a flame Don't share in my regret, promise to stay distant I couldn't bare to see you in this much pain Find me ambivalent to some extent To take another step if it's in vain Notice I'm hesitant to place a bet L's stack shame on top of shame atop my name Life itself's a debt, lest we forget The plot and grave are one in the same A dark passenger resident denise me residence How did I lose access to my own brain To myself I'm a threat, morality bent Just so I'm not always going against the grain Don't care 'bout bein' relevant, never permanent But pain finds a way to remain No clue what it meant is a poor argument Would rather not waste time trying to explain One day you might get it, wouldn't count on it Strange to be your very own ball and chain Go 'head and attempt it, see no safety net You WILL become one with the terrain Flesh and bone, neck and neck racing to pavement Then witness the insane riddled membrane Always defiant, against my better judgement Probably should have stayed in my own lane No deterrent to embracing my inner deviant A full embrace of the profane Won't seek atonement, least not at the moment I only wish the only option was to remain There's a death certificate, a signed suicide document The growing black mark on my heart is more than a stain So here I sit, trying to make sense of it Unknown, alone and forgotten out in the rain Selfimprisonment, a life sentence recipient The issues with my DNA, infecting every strain ©2023
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bettsjc187
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bettsjc187
42/M/Washington State
May 13, 2023
May 13, 2023 at 9:22 PM UTC
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