Years ago you walked into my life
I can still picture what you were wearing
It popped up as a memory on Snapchat
Like a punch in the gut
The feeling I had was indescribable
To think that it has been that long
I think the feeling I was hit with was regret
Or maybe nostalgia? I’m not sure
I know it’s something I’ll live with forever
I will be married with kids and still get hit with that same feeling if your name is brought up
Don’t get me wrong I don’t miss the past
I don’t miss what we went through
What I put you through
But I think I will always miss… you
Your humor
Your kindness
Your selflessness
Our endless conversations
Our craving each others attention
I still check up on you every now and then
More often than I’d like to admit
And no it’s not how you think
I check to see if you’re okay
Which I guess is a hard thing to tell over social media but
I check to see if you’re having fun with friends
I check to see what funny tweets you retweet (we really did have the same sense of humor)
I check because I need to know that you’re happy
So that the guilt doesn’t eat away at me as much
So maybe I am still being selfish in that way
My only saving grace is knowing how great of a person you are
Knowing you will (or already have) found happiness again in someone else
I know now we have too much history to ever get back what we had
Or could’ve had
I don’t believe in soulmates
But I do believe we were put together for a reason
“right person wrong time”
to teach us a lesson
And **** did I learn that lesson.
Nov 23, 2022
Nov 23, 2022 at 11:19 PM UTC
Years ago you walked into my life
I can still picture what you were wearing
It popped up as a memory on Snapchat
Like a punch in the gut
The feeling I had was indescribable
To think that it has been that long
I think the feeling I was hit with was regret
Or maybe nostalgia? I’m not sure
I know it’s something I’ll live with forever
I will be married with kids and still get hit with that same feeling if your name is brought up
Don’t get me wrong I don’t miss the past
I don’t miss what we went through
What I put you through
But I think I will always miss… you
Your humor
Your kindness
Your selflessness
Our endless conversations
Our craving each others attention
I still check up on you every now and then
More often than I’d like to admit
And no it’s not how you think
I check to see if you’re okay
Which I guess is a hard thing to tell over social media but
I check to see if you’re having fun with friends
I check to see what funny tweets you retweet (we really did have the same sense of humor)
I check because I need to know that you’re happy
So that the guilt doesn’t eat away at me as much
So maybe I am still being selfish in that way
My only saving grace is knowing how great of a person you are
Knowing you will (or already have) found happiness again in someone else
I know now we have too much history to ever get back what we had
Or could’ve had
I don’t believe in soulmates
But I do believe we were put together for a reason
“right person wrong time”
to teach us a lesson
And **** did I learn that lesson.