i lay in my bed typing this with one hand on my brand new laptop
i think it's getting bad again
i'm moving out in 19 days for college
i can't get the memories to leave me alone
my dad was the one who bought me this laptop as a gift for college
i can still feel the touches of the man who couldn't keep his hands
off of me
i will never be the same
my parents pay for EMDR therapy
it's expensive
it's not covered by insurance
i feel guilty
i feel like i ruined this family dynamic
we don't go to church anymore
church is where the man worked
church was where i suffered
the cold brick wall all the way at the back of the building
behind the pews
everyone's backs to me
as i stood in silence while
he ruined me
it's time to go to bed
maybe i'll feel better tomorrow
Jul 21, 2022
Jul 21, 2022 at 11:11 PM UTC
i lay in my bed typing this with one hand on my brand new laptop
i think it's getting bad again
i'm moving out in 19 days for college
i can't get the memories to leave me alone
my dad was the one who bought me this laptop as a gift for college
i can still feel the touches of the man who couldn't keep his hands
off of me
i will never be the same
my parents pay for EMDR therapy
it's expensive
it's not covered by insurance
i feel guilty
i feel like i ruined this family dynamic
we don't go to church anymore
church is where the man worked
church was where i suffered
the cold brick wall all the way at the back of the building
behind the pews
everyone's backs to me
as i stood in silence while
he ruined me
it's time to go to bed
maybe i'll feel better tomorrow
sorry this one is kinda dark
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