i’ve spent most of my life
avoiding big feelings
ducking from the intensity
that so often leads to disappointment
passion? look away.
anger? let’s table it.
grief? i’m fine.
love? as long as it’s not deep.
happiness? don’t get used to it.
excitement? a waste of time.
so when life threatens to jeopardize
my built-in anesthesia,
i don’t want to wake up.
May 25, 2022
May 25, 2022 at 3:32 PM UTC
i’ve spent most of my life
avoiding big feelings
ducking from the intensity
that so often leads to disappointment
passion? look away.
anger? let’s table it.
grief? i’m fine.
love? as long as it’s not deep.
happiness? don’t get used to it.
excitement? a waste of time.
so when life threatens to jeopardize
my built-in anesthesia,
i don’t want to wake up.