Maybe, if I sit
still in this dark, finally
I can disappear...
Sep 6, 2021
Sep 6, 2021 at 12:31 AM UTC
Maybe, if I sit
still in this dark, finally
I can disappear...
I just sat in my car in the dark for over 15 minutes tonight. I wished that if I just didn't move I could finally disappear and be free of this tortuous existence... My girlfriend and best friend say that my situation is tragic, but I don't really know if I agree, it just seems... Normal.
The three of us discussed a character in a show I watched who let everyone around her to use her for whatever they want, encouraging them to **** and beat her if it would make them happier, and to me that just seemed... Unremarkably ok. That's what makes her happy, why should anyone see it otherwise?
They said the fact I couldn't see what was wrong with that situation was even more tragic than the situation itself.
Again, I don't know if I believe them.
