i always thought i would love you until my dying day.
until my lungs gave out and my heart stopped it’s persistent thudding.
i thought i would love you in spite of it all;
the inconsistency, the intimacy. the never checking up on me.
the times all i ever wanted was to see your name flash up on my phone but i only ever
saw myself staring back at me
and i didn’t know what to do with that until
i stopped waiting.
and now i don’t think i want to love you anymore.
Aug 18, 2021
Aug 18, 2021 at 9:22 PM UTC
i always thought i would love you until my dying day.
until my lungs gave out and my heart stopped it’s persistent thudding.
i thought i would love you in spite of it all;
the inconsistency, the intimacy. the never checking up on me.
the times all i ever wanted was to see your name flash up on my phone but i only ever
saw myself staring back at me
and i didn’t know what to do with that until
i stopped waiting.
and now i don’t think i want to love you anymore.