Who am I?

lifeisntbasic Poems

Where am I? Bc I feel out of place I feel alone In the darkness trying to hide my pain My confusion My insecurities so no can see I feel alone in the darkness trying to find myself Who am I? Because I feel like I'm trapped I can't find any answers I'm alone Please I need to get out of here and live my life But I can't..... I'm alone I'm unworthy and trashed. I'm worthless and there is no going back Where do I go? Because I've lost my map Which way do I turn? Im stuck trying to put the puzzle together but it's all one color and there's 10,000 pieces. I'm struggling to find my self, my direction in life Where am I? These monsters are in the dark here with me Attacking me Making me feel like I'm no one. WHO am I? Trying to see I'm blind I can't hear anything around me But my hands are over my ears because I'm trying to drown out my thoughts The thoughts that come up to my neck They choke me I can't speak anymore They are surrounding me Like a never ending war I'm stuck fighting living in a hell whole of a life losing everything I earn I don't know who I am anymore it's hard to control my thoughts I need that protection where is it? I'm stuck and afraid Afraid of the negative thoughts that fill my brain I'm no longer needed they say I can go about now but I can't But I want to But I just CAN'T I'm stuck here in quicksand no one strong enough themselves to pull me out I'm sinking. I'm not me anymore. But that's the whole point of depression, Isn't it?