I know that you love me,
but it doesn't always feel like it
I know that you love me,
but you don't show me sometimes
I know that you love me,
but I can't see it sometimes
I know that you love me,
but...
But you never have time for me anymore
you never ask me how my day is anymore
you never spam me throughout the day anymore
you never tell me that you love me the same anymore
You don't support me anymore
I know that you're busy,
but.....
But you don't even think of me throughout your day
you don't text me throughout your day
you don't love me throughout the day
you don't give me attention throughout the day,
but I know you are busy so I just accept it...
I accept the fact that you don't think of me throughout your day
you keep yourself busy
I accept the fact that we will never be the same because
you keep yourself busy
I accept the fact that you don't have time for me anymore
you keep yourself busy
I accept the fact that I will never be your priority
you keep yourself busy
I accept the fact that I will never be your number one because
you keep yourself busy...
I understand all this but...
sometimes I need all that
sometimes I need that love
sometimes I need that support
sometimes I need that attention
sometimes I need that priority time
Because...
Without it...
I feel like giving up sometimes
I feel unwanted and trashed sometimes
I feel unneeded sometimes
I feel like I'm in a battle with myself that two should be fighting
I feel like I'm not me anymore
I feel that you forget about me sometimes, you don't think of me
I feel alone...
I don't know how else to tell you this, so I wrote this poem because you don't listen to me when I try to tell you that I'm suffering,
that I feel unloved
that I am alone in this relationship
that I don't feel like this is a relationship
we never talk anymore...
I wish I could tell you how I feel without you calling me overdramatic or needy
I wish I could tell you this without you calling me clingy or obsessed
I wish I could tell you how I fell without you calling me selfish or ungrateful for what I have
I wish I could tell you this to have you understand that I feel alone and forgotten...
I know you are busy, but doing those little things, like small texts to know you are thinking of me
They help
they help a lot.
I know you want your time and you don't want to spend all your free time with me
but making time for me makes me feel important
Even if I'm not your priority, and I respect that I'm not
but you have to remember that if you want a relationship,
you have to supply the needs of the other person too
You have to remind them that you are thinking of them sometimes
otherwise,
you lose the connection,
the trust,
the love,
and
the relationship itself...
You have to remember that they feel things too, and it's not just other things that you have to make your priority.
If you want a relationship,
you have to commit to that person and put the time in them
and not just the time that you have free, but the time that you make for them.
You have to make time for them in order for things to work out...
I love you,
but I don't always see or feel it from you.
Oct 12, 2021
Oct 12, 2021 at 11:56 AM UTC
Where am I?
Bc I feel out of place
I feel alone
In the darkness trying to hide my pain
My confusion
My insecurities so no can see
I feel alone in the darkness trying to find myself
Who am I?
Because I feel like I'm trapped
I can't find any answers
I'm alone
Please
I need to get out of here and live my life
But I can't.....
I'm alone
I'm unworthy and trashed.
I'm worthless and there is no going back
Where do I go?
Because I've lost my map
Which way do I turn?
Im stuck trying to put the puzzle together but it's all one color and there's 10,000 pieces.
I'm struggling to find my self, my direction in life
Where am I?
These monsters are in the dark here with me
Attacking me
Making me feel like I'm no one.
WHO am I?
Trying to see
I'm blind
I can't hear anything around me
But my hands are over my ears because I'm trying to drown out my thoughts
The thoughts that come up to my neck
They choke me
I can't speak anymore
They are surrounding me
Like a never ending war I'm stuck fighting living in a hell whole of a life losing everything I earn I don't know who I am anymore it's hard to control my thoughts I need that protection where is it?
I'm stuck and afraid
Afraid of the negative thoughts that fill my brain I'm no longer needed they say I can go about now but I can't
But I want to
But I just CAN'T
I'm stuck here in quicksand no one strong enough themselves to pull me out I'm sinking.
I'm not me anymore.
But that's the whole point of depression,
Isn't it?
Aug 15, 2021
Aug 15, 2021 at 2:15 PM UTC
Sometimes I feel lonely
And when I'm by myself, I cry
I cry when I feel hopless, emotionally tired, and depressed
Sometimes I feel lonely
Aug 3, 2021
Aug 3, 2021 at 10:54 AM UTC
Shii ion know what I'm thinking,
or if I'm thinking at all.
I got these lines in my mind,
and I'm jus writing it raw.
I got this whole life ahead of me,
but I'm thinking I'll fall.
Like, what is this future that I'm creating
Can I really live up to what I'm debating?
Now, I'm getting kinda sick of this,
and I'm starting to think,
If there really is any bliss.
Because this life I'm creating isn't starting to sync...
Starting these programs, before helping myself,
girl what do I look like?
This perfect image, makes you wanna think bout yourself
These negative thoughts,
maybe you should work with yourself
I'm tryna do this therapy thing all by myself
Don't say your working with me,
when I know ppl be working against me
Only a select few that I know of
are giving me a shove
This direction my life's going is headed in the right direction,
but one small mistake ruins it for the worse
Like what is your intention
to make me feel like I'm drowning in my thoughts
I'm still tryna go with what I was taught.
Jun 3, 2021
Jun 3, 2021 at 8:08 AM UTC
I don't know what to think no more
Being with you makes me wanna Soar
Through the sky,
come on baby, please don't lie
to me, I got this under control
You plus me, that makes us whole.
I got this relationship,
trust me its been a grip
since you and me got the time to think about this future
we been dealing with it, yes you were
you were saving this future for the both of us
come on baby, lets discuss
how we gonna be together
for ever and ever.
This future is in our hands
we not gonna let our future be decided because of all these demands
that we're getting from those around us
come on, we gotta adjust
the time we have together
its lighter then that feather
over there, just floating away
make this future all fuzzy and grey.
But I know us,
we don't got no suss,
we gonna be together forever baby
because I'm your one and only on a daily.
May 28, 2021
May 28, 2021 at 10:08 AM UTC
Dear grammy,
as the clouds open their doors
to let the sunshine through,
you have opened a door in me,
to let my happiness show
your positivity shines like the sun
Impacting everything it touches
As the sunshine peeks though the clouds,
like a child playing hide and seek,
You have peeked in on me,
when I am feeling down
Shining your light,
through my cracks
you have helped me grow
by shining happiness into my life long ago
You have taught me how to grow,
How to stand up tall,
you never gave up on me,
not once in your life
You are why I kept going,
you are as positive as a flower blooming,
every single day
Sadly, you have passed away
Feb 24, 2021
Feb 24, 2021 at 10:29 AM UTC
I want to be a mental health social worker.
I want others to not feel the pain that I am feeling.
I want to teach others how to understand
their emotions,
their doubts,
their worries.
I want to help others learn
how to be happy,
how to cope
how to find a hobby.
I want others to know that I am here,
and that I'm not going to leave.
I want them to know that I can help them.
I want to lower the depression rates,
make people
happy,
comfortable,
relieved
I want a lot of things,
so I'm going to
get up
do something
help others
I want to make a difference
so I'm going to
change
learn
research
study
repeat
Until my goal is met,
I will repeat
I will repeat
over, and over, and over
Until I have what I want
Until I can find peace with myself
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 9:48 AM UTC
I want to help,
talk to me,
I can help you.
Depression rates are increasing,
Will you be the next victim?
Depression can cause you to feel
numb,
broken,
alone,
scared,
unloved,
or unwanted
Depression can tear you into a trillion little pieces
and scatter you all over the floor
Others don't help clean up,
Instead, they walk all over you,
they push you to the side,
hide you in a
trashcan....
They tell you that you're trash,
you tell the mirror.
They tell you no one wants you,
You tell the mirror.
They tell you that you are nothing,
you tell the mirror.
They tell you that you are nothing,
you tell the razor.
They tell you that you are worthless,
you tell the red stained water.
They tell you that you are nothing,
you tell the doctor.
They tell your mom that they were so so close to you,
you tell God it's a lie...
Depression is hurting
our souls,
our hearts,
our physical bodies.
Are you next?
Talking helps.
Talking hurts.
Talking is overwhelming.
But you have to do it.
Pick up the scrapes,
glue them together,
find peace with yourself.
Understand that you have to want to be helped in order for ANYONE to help you.
Understand that you can be glued back together.
Yes, there are scars, but they show others what you have
gone through,
dealt with,
survived.
You can survive,
because right now, you are still here reading this poem.
Aug 19, 2020
Aug 19, 2020 at 5:09 PM UTC
If my depression was a person,
They would show what goes on inside you.
They would tear you down and tell you that you are not worth it.
They'll say that you are stupid and ugly and that no one would care if you're gone.
They crave others' hurtful words and takes them to heart and then begins to turn your happy days to dark days.
Your proud moments to failures.
Your normal days to sad days...
They love others hurtful words...
"No one would care if you're gone".
You try to tell them "it's not true, that's a lie!"
"It's not a lie", they say
"You have NOBODY!"
"You are worth nothing! No one even notices you anyway"...
If my depression was a person,
I know for a fact that they would find your softest parts,
your weakest links...
and point at it,
drawing attention and digging a hole,
until you couldn't handle it anymore.
Until it makes you suffer as it has suffered.
If my depression was a person,
I wouldn't be here right now.
Yet, somehow, my depression was a person...
Apr 27, 2020
Apr 27, 2020 at 2:33 PM UTC