Shame stalks me like shadows
On my heels
Put myself through so much torture
Must like the way it feels
Blame you for depression
I know that isn't true
Because I already struggled
Before I lost you
Words you whispered walk through skull
Play phrases on repeat
Conscious of fact I'll never hear them again
Whimper in defeat
In midst of motionless self-pity
Chaos indetectably brews
Conflicted between sticking up for myself
Or withstanding more mistakes I'll excuse
A stillness appeared a moment
As quickly as arrived it is gone
Built on instability
Cannot trust pavement I tread upon
Rippling across distance
Wind melodic
Moving
Thin
Fabric of time and space silky soft
Not quite as soft as your skin
A trail of kisses leads to
waistband
By my moseying mouth
In turn undress me til body is bare
Slowly work your **** sin south
Bars of piano play symphonies
Resounding from the middle of my mind
Waves rolling in and out with the current
Notes are far more tender and kind
I let myself bask in bittersweet glow
Melting due to warmth of total bliss
Voice has never sounded so smooth
Collision never like this
My being joining in rhythm
Tangling until we are one
We remain connected by flesh
Some time after we are done
Eventually guilt emerges
Torn between directions
Why must head and my heart
Inhabit different sections?
I long to be with you
I'm afraid as soon as you know I care
Feelings will fade when I close my eyes
Open them and again you won't be there
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 3:01 AM UTC
Shame stalks me like shadows
On my heels
Put myself through so much torture
Must like the way it feels
Blame you for depression
I know that isn't true
Because I already struggled
Before I lost you
Words you whispered walk through skull
Play phrases on repeat
Conscious of fact I'll never hear them again
Whimper in defeat
In midst of motionless self-pity
Chaos indetectably brews
Conflicted between sticking up for myself
Or withstanding more mistakes I'll excuse
A stillness appeared a moment
As quickly as arrived it is gone
Built on instability
Cannot trust pavement I tread upon
Rippling across distance
Wind melodic
Moving
Thin
Fabric of time and space silky soft
Not quite as soft as your skin
A trail of kisses leads to
waistband
By my moseying mouth
In turn undress me til body is bare
Slowly work your **** sin south
Bars of piano play symphonies
Resounding from the middle of my mind
Waves rolling in and out with the current
Notes are far more tender and kind
I let myself bask in bittersweet glow
Melting due to warmth of total bliss
Voice has never sounded so smooth
Collision never like this
My being joining in rhythm
Tangling until we are one
We remain connected by flesh
Some time after we are done
Eventually guilt emerges
Torn between directions
Why must head and my heart
Inhabit different sections?
I long to be with you
I'm afraid as soon as you know I care
Feelings will fade when I close my eyes
Open them and again you won't be there
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