#load
My eyes are flickering
from this constant glow.
Too tired of this addiction—
this workload on the screen
swallowing me whole.
Please… just let me get lost,
never to be called back
to this noise again.
I need a moment away,
where no notification
tears me awake—
for I never wanted
to return to this
open-cage.**
Nov 23, 2025
Nov 23, 2025 at 1:26 AM UTC
Onto me, they load and unload
All the emotions they picked up on the road,
Making me repeat to myself,
I am not a harbour.
Their anxieties lying all over me
That's why, they all leave in glee
I tried to manage it's load, repeating
I am not a harbour.
Near sea, the sun would kiss me.
I am still near the sea
But the load on me blocking the sunrays
Hence I repeat, I am not a harbour.
I feel the cracks on myself that no one sees.
I wished all the load to be drowned in the sea.
Each crack I count,
Singing, I am not a harbour.
One day, snap, I may,
Trying to listen what everyone has to say.
I listen and they unload
But I m not a harbour.
Oct 4, 2025
Oct 4, 2025 at 9:53 AM UTC
the process… zoological zoa logos
living words, made of sentient letters,
let us imagine,
leave us time and space,
gravity and velocity,
we adapt ideal ideas, perfect plans,
recipes for peace past comprehension,
co-here co-opera ratiocination, balance
app raise worth… wait, not weight value,
app raise value of attention paid per precept
time tools take parallel Elohim zoas, eh,
Blakes Creator uses compass and calipers,
believed imaginary until one sees through
new lensing concepts
Sep 7, 2025
Sep 7, 2025 at 11:30 AM UTC
Molten tributaries
Live in my shoulders
Nerves stare me down
With contempt,
Dead-eyed
Salve upon salve
Licked away in time
Bloodied nails
Dig further through
My neck stretches
Like old glue
Snapping, without breaking
My hips take ahold
As if I am on a ledge
As if Im about to fall
Ankles loose in their skin
Try and try again
Cry and cry again
Numbness arrives
At night, to be held
Pokes me awake
I cannot escape
These children of pain,
No story
Brings satisfying meaning
They are simply here
Staring at me,
Pleading,
Some livid,
Some choked of feeling
I am left to carry them
With the body
They torture.
Jul 15, 2025
Jul 15, 2025 at 9:12 PM UTC
i'm a light machine gun.....
locked up and loaded in rounds......
firing all kinetic energy and reason..........
across the trenches and the fields i've sent..........
pistols, shotguns, autos to their knees.........
but as i unlock and reload and cool down..........
and the panicked silence settles in.........
i have to ask in kind......
s n i p e r..
do i have your eye?
Feb 3, 2025
Feb 3, 2025 at 7:05 AM UTC
By Arcassin B
"Its simple as me and you,
Simple as one and two,
Simple as a church being filled up in these pews,
You think this the real you?
Will Reincarnation make the same you?
Will you go to a heaven-like state or a dying Hellish virtue,
So many choices , you gotta choose,
To be honest,
Might be beneficiary to you,
Open up your eyes,
Death is not the end,
Dead not dead at all,
Its spookism,
Everyone got a time,
Got a date,
Everyone has their cake ,
Inherited their space,
Matrix Reloaded so many times,
We need the spell to break."
New poem titled "Reloaded" full poem link below <<<<
✅️
Jan 4, 2025
Jan 4, 2025 at 5:50 PM UTC
We walked together
till together walked away
We stopped the walking
and sat down to lay
wondering how
life is heavy this way
not to carry
together’s slack
and whether we could carry
together another day
if together
were to ever come back
to stay
Aug 24, 2023
Aug 24, 2023 at 4:52 PM UTC
I don't know how to say this
Do not want to break your heart
Want to be the person you wish I could be
We'd be better off apart
Where is this going?
Got to be able to tell
Noticing for awhile
Haven't been doing so well
I fought dozens of battles
Silently in mind
Kept them imprisoned
Less conflict confined
I should face problems
But I am a coward so I run
Hard to conquer an argument
You already believe you won
Maybe I am being harsh
I can only take so much
A relationship is supposed to be
More than people who touch
See sometimes feel a tingle
Think "this isn't so bad"
That itself means it is
To deny must be raving mad
The friction is obvious
Where do I draw the line?
I am stuck in an internal war
Between your emotions and mine
My hands might be lonely
When clasped something is amiss
As long as yours fills gaps between fingers
Nobody else can see if theirs fits
If being totally honest
Seems you don't really care about me
Tears drip out eyes all the time
You are too self-centered to see
Trying to build life back up
You are standing in my way
Making things harder than already are
Painting sky shades of grey
I am opening eyes to reality
Hope you do that too
We both need to stop lying to ourselves
We know it isn't true
I taste sorry on my tongue again
Taste regret on my lips
Obligation squeezes tighter
When you put arms around hips
Only now letting you know
How much feelings have changed
My head full of hope for a heavy heart Hung from noose was exchanged
I should have been forthcoming
Informed you was over as soon as I knew
I can't stand causing others pain
Why it took this long to say this to you
But sick of home not feeling like home
In own room feel out of place
You've transformed it to your own
Do not have a single private space
You are a tornado
In wake is a trail of destruction
Many flaws get in the way
About time I move obstruction
Your ego too big for me
To properly see around
In fact how do you even lift your head?
Must weigh a thousand pounds
Your conceited attitude more often than not
Provokes until seeing red
Arrogance unattractive
Try acting humble instead
I cannot picture a future with you
You are inconsiderate and dumb
No ambition or work ethic
Would rather be a ***
You take time with everything
Never met someone so slow
Put so much effort and see no results
Almost no progress to show
Without my aid what will you do?
How will you get high?
Depend on everybody else around you
If you desired you could get by
Lungs filled with poison
Bloodstream with *****
Need crutches to get through each day
Think these substances are helping
They really only get in the way
With only pride and standards
I will continue life in solitude
Better than being with someone who's naive
Not to mention selfish and rude
Consequences for actions
Finally caught up to where we are
Have tolerated a lot of ********
I've decided I'm raising the bar
My goal is to go further in my life
Than you plan to go
Hindering distance to travel
Making it challenging to grow
Soon you'll be left in the dust
Discovering I was right
Won't be able to use me as an excuse
For failure when I'm out of sight
You call me idiotic pet names
What I am in your contacts under is bold
McPoops?
Actually prefer "The *****
What are you? Six years old?
How many occasions have you pouted?
Sulking because you disagreed
With words said or things done?
I gave no choice but concede
I have every right to be unhappy
How can you not understand why?
May not always be reason for tears
You sure do not help them dry
Are you center of universe?
That is how you act
Helping yourself to anything viewed
You are entitled and that is a fact
I do not know if you do it on purpose
You disrespect everyone here
Using stuff but not asking
To rules you do not adhere
The only person I have ever met
Who is even lazier than me
Make messes faster than you clean up
Cannot handle responsibility
Not to mention you can't keep track
Of any possession you own
Or that you failed to pay back majority
Of money you have been loaned
Your expensive eating habits
And cockiness get on nerves
Believe you are correct about every subject
Isolation what you deserve
You break trust without hesitation
Snitching on me like a rat
If I plead with you to keep a secret
You can't even follow through with that
You probably think we are being mean
That you are misunderstood
If that's true then tell me this
What have you done that's good?
You disassemble stuff like a tweaker
Not putting back in one piece
Have given you so many chances
Still the madness won't cease
It is an eternal struggle
To even get you to barely move
Just procrastinate your life away
After promising to improve
Rather live in solitude
Than with a theif who lies
Took two CATs of my dad's
You thought he would not realize?
And when telling you something
You do not want to hear
Pretend to agree with statement
Goes out the other ear
You have to get your priorities straight
It's clear you never will
How are you expecting to survive
Without ambition
Sapience
Skill?
You expect others to carry your load
Piggybacking much as you can
The behavior of a little boy
How dare you call yourself a man
But when affecting your wallet
You are stingy as they come
Generosity is not in your vocabulary
Unless receiving some
Then have the audacity
To judge the way I live
Degrading me because of choices
After the ****** up **** I forgive
At least I do not blame my dependency
For why I'm unable to function
Worse still you put fault for your addiction
On pharmaceutical corruption
I have met plenty of people
Fed prescriptions as a child
Medicated whole **** life
Their abilities are not defiled
You envision the world to your favor
Instead of how it is for real
Perception the problem here
Delusion rooted in privilege you feel
You have a lot of growing up to do
Wish I would have waited
Gotten to know who you really are
Now I wish we never dated
Jul 29, 2021
Jul 29, 2021 at 11:25 AM UTC
Shame stalks me like shadows
On my heels
Put myself through so much torture
Must like the way it feels
Blame you for depression
I know that isn't true
Because I already struggled
Before I lost you
Words you whispered walk through skull
Play phrases on repeat
Conscious of fact I'll never hear them again
Whimper in defeat
In midst of motionless self-pity
Chaos indetectably brews
Conflicted between sticking up for myself
Or withstanding more mistakes I'll excuse
A stillness appeared a moment
As quickly as arrived it is gone
Built on instability
Cannot trust pavement I tread upon
Rippling across distance
Wind melodic
Moving
Thin
Fabric of time and space silky soft
Not quite as soft as your skin
A trail of kisses leads to
waistband
By my moseying mouth
In turn undress me til body is bare
Slowly work your **** sin south
Bars of piano play symphonies
Resounding from the middle of my mind
Waves rolling in and out with the current
Notes are far more tender and kind
I let myself bask in bittersweet glow
Melting due to warmth of total bliss
Voice has never sounded so smooth
Collision never like this
My being joining in rhythm
Tangling until we are one
We remain connected by flesh
Some time after we are done
Eventually guilt emerges
Torn between directions
Why must head and my heart
Inhabit different sections?
I long to be with you
I'm afraid as soon as you know I care
Feelings will fade when I close my eyes
Open them and again you won't be there
Apr 2, 2021
Apr 2, 2021 at 3:01 AM UTC
Lock and Load,
with a heart heavier than the gun
with shoulders burdened,
with the weight of what is to be done
what is to occur
and after,
with a soul blackened
by the events that once were
Feb 26, 2020
Feb 26, 2020 at 2:35 PM UTC
I keep saying,
"This would be so much
more bearable if..."
But maybe
it isn't supposed to be
more bearable.
Maybe I'll train
and find new ways
of bearing the load.
Maybe I'll feel
that much lighter and stronger
when the load is lifted.
Feb 9, 2019
Feb 9, 2019 at 2:15 PM UTC
Pear on the coffee table
Apple on the counter
A loaf of bread
On the unmade bed.
My heart in your fridge,
Half broken, half dead.
-- Eleanor
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 10:38 AM UTC
a Norwegian
fjord did
cut their
axel's hairpin
in the
row of
tundra that
Lapland was
their arcane
balloon on
Aegean shore
if Barents
Sea burgeoned
dialect herd
yelp in
Mike Pence
with accord.
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 10:22 AM UTC
tapping
spanking and
smacking
god-like smite
this camera wouldn't roll load
memory full
now can't open
buy new memory card
don't you know?
wished were as easy as so
becoming shizoaffective with Alzheimer's and senile dementia
buy me the memory card
on a daily basis
getting worse
becoming uncontrollable silence will soon boomerang
dysfunction incorrigible
and when I begin to forget
promise to help me remember
don't let the world shove me aside
my love to the aged outside in the community...we lads and lasses love you all and your cosmic legacies, they will never be put aside
from the growing community
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 4:08 AM UTC
burdens i carry
heavy loads weigh on my soul
and they bring me down
Apr 9, 2016
Apr 9, 2016 at 3:43 PM UTC
*I just don't care
Anymore
Load a gun
Shot me down
Put me
In my
Grave...
Free me from
Misunderstandings
And free me from
The pain
Load a gun and
Shot me down
Put me in my
Grave...*
Mar 15, 2016
Mar 15, 2016 at 10:05 AM UTC
My loads are heavy
And I need someone to talk to
But you're not here
And not even there
Where we use to paint
our dreams...
Sep 26, 2014
Sep 26, 2014 at 1:25 AM UTC
.
Hello, my friend
You've walked so long
Though you have far to go;
Take refuge here,
Just sleep and rest:
You look tireder than you show.
Come in, my friend
I've worn those shoes,
And walked down many a road;
If you come inside
And sit awhile,
You may leave with lesser a load.
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 12:29 PM UTC