I know why I was running as fast as I could
I know why I still felt as though I wasn’t good
When everyone else understood what was said
While I was thinking what’s wrong with my head
The signs were all there
I wish I had known
I wish I had seen them
Each time they had shown
No I am not lazy
Nor am I dumb
I am not broken
And there’s no need to run.
Yes I still need them
To speak to me different,
I need things explained to me
Slowly, just need a second
My brain works differently
And I sense more than most
I hear the electricity
Louder than your voice when you talk
There’s no race that I’m running
So I can’t be behind
I do things my own way
that works for my mind
I’m different than them
But that’s nothing wrong
I’ve learned a lot about me
And who I’ve been all along
I am at peace now
I know where I belong
I’ve found others just like me
I’m not helpless after all
I am just me
And you are just you
And we are both different
Your needs are special too.
Feb 5, 2021
Feb 5, 2021 at 9:44 PM UTC
I know why I was running as fast as I could
I know why I still felt as though I wasn’t good
When everyone else understood what was said
While I was thinking what’s wrong with my head
The signs were all there
I wish I had known
I wish I had seen them
Each time they had shown
No I am not lazy
Nor am I dumb
I am not broken
And there’s no need to run.
Yes I still need them
To speak to me different,
I need things explained to me
Slowly, just need a second
My brain works differently
And I sense more than most
I hear the electricity
Louder than your voice when you talk
There’s no race that I’m running
So I can’t be behind
I do things my own way
that works for my mind
I’m different than them
But that’s nothing wrong
I’ve learned a lot about me
And who I’ve been all along
I am at peace now
I know where I belong
I’ve found others just like me
I’m not helpless after all
I am just me
And you are just you
And we are both different
Your needs are special too.
Finding out I’m autistic was finding out everything about me and all of it suddenly making sense. I know why I never understood things the same as those around me
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